I only am devoted to breathing the lies of others. Making people smile to avoid destruction. I get stepped on by the happy feet of people and I am the dirty filled rug. Believe me, I have tried to take the dirt off myself and although I can barely succeed someone manages to step on me again. Oh friend, I wish you could understand that my life shatters like glass but without a single sound. Someone pushes me and I stumble, fall to the ground once more. I get up and put myself back together again like Humpty Dumpty fell off the wall. And just as I put the final piece back, I'm thrusted to where people tell me I belong. Oh friend is it true? Am I supposed to just let people do this to me "of course not" you'll respond. I fightback to show my strength, make an army of the energy and the patience I have left. I perspire as I climb the mountain to which I regain my honor. The rocks slip beneath my feet and as I begin to reach the top, a waterfall, so full of hate wraps around my body and pulls me from my freedom. The odor of death smells so bad but tastes so good against my tongue. Oh friend tell me how do I get out? How can I be happy without hearing the voice of others when they shred my happiness by making me do what they want? I am a slave chained, not because of my color, but because pleasing people comes before what brings me joy. There are scars from the battles,many battles lost from fighting to love the world i was brought into. How can you love a world so cold? I manage to seek the beauty but as we all know, darkness will capture you and drag you down into the depths of hell. Oh friend, please tell me again how do you do it? How do keep running this race when ur being knocked down so much? How to you keep going? I am so hurt by the pain of bringing people happiness that they cant see. Oh but friend i forgot to mention...you also use me. Thats why your so happy you look to me for an escape from reality. You don't care about my pain or who's hurting me because i found out, you do too. So why am i looking to you for help. God knI'm ows that i have no other option but to live like this and it sucks but today just like the lie everyone wants me to say. I'll have to suck it up and just do it.
