Call Me Baby {p.c.y, b.b.h}

Youth

If only my life didn't turn out this way. If I were born in 1992, I could make things easier and I wouldn't be in this cruddy place just watching EXO until I die and go into the afterlife. This is just sad. Am I really this selfish?

~ July 19th, 2017, 8:34 AM

-Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, shoot anonymous-

I heard the sound of my alarm going off. I switched the alarm off and sat up from my bed to find myself in my room full of KPOP. Mostly EXO. I'm still in the millenial times and what am I even doing just sitting here? I should be on my computer opening various tabs to fangirl to KPOP.

I got out from my bed and fixed my EXO pj's while walking to my computer at the side of the room. Wow, I got so many notifications from that bish. Ah, this chingu. Always bothering me whenever I am offline. I saw so many notifications that were mentioning her username on instagram.

''@Star_Is_RandomAF has sent you a picture.''

''@Star_Is_RandomAF has mentioned you in her post.''

What does unnie* want now? i thought. I just kept on scrolling down my notification until I found something that caught my eye. My jagiya*? Gyun never told me she had an insta account. Min Jaegyun, you could have just told me. You know I sometimes despise surprises...

To start off with introductions, nae ireumeun Kim Kyuyoung. Yep, I speak Korean. Only a lil'bit though. I have my own ways of learning. I am very young. That is to say I am 13 and a half years of age turning 14 next year. I have known KPOP ever since I was 12.

The people I mentioned earlier, Min Jaegyun and Choi Haneul are my best friends. I describe them as half of my halves. Being Jaegyun as my KPOP side and Haneul as my other fandom side. But they never met each other as Haneul is in my old school and Jaegyun is with me in my current school.

Speaking of school, I barely get along with anyone. I only have like what three friends in my section and two friends in the section where Gyun-Gyun was. Yeah, I call Jaegyun that nickname. She's my jagiya, not anyone else's. And as for Haneul-unnie, she's my 'older sister'/wife. Don't judge us. We have a weird relationship contrasting to the normal girlxgirl relationship I have with Gyunnie. I rarely meet Haneullie these days but I still chat with her.

I have a little sister named Kim Go Ah. She is 5 years old and probably the most noisy in the family even though I fangirl myself...

I can say I have a big family but it's not that big. My parents are always going out leaving me with my uncle and my grandparents most of the time unless bringing me to school or family outings and all that stuff churva churva. I spend most of my time indoors than outdoors cause you know I got my own life. The thing where 'you have to make your own choices' and all that shizz.

I never get to go out on sleepovers, camping and all that stuff because I was born with short term memory loss. Like Dory, I tend to be forgetful at times and block out the important things in life. And my own eomma hates me for that. She always tells me that forgetfulness isn't an excuse for making that mistake and that she needs me to change. But no. My forgetfulness was inborn and it can't be changed. Yet she still reprimands me everytime. Says the one who always forgets to get her bag from upstairs every now and then. Yeah, I sometimes hate her but she is actually the only real family I got left...

-Ding!-

A new notification has just popped up on my Google account. I wonder, what could it be? Probably some stranger trying to hack me. No, of course that's kind of crazy. I then went to my computer again to check my inbox and found an unexpected invite. SM.Entertainment? That's the company EXO is in! What did they want with me? Or is it a fake account? But it's not possible because the URL of the email is the exact website of SM Ent. I know because I know...