That fantastic song
And beautiful dress.
Your favorite way to spend your time.
Days at the park
Having the time to go on walk,
The impeccable timing of your best friend,
Or her overcompensation.
Long winter nights snuggled in a
Blanket with hot chocolate
Topped with marshmallows.
Other little things like
Breathing fresh air
And wanting nothing more than to
Lie in the grass and be.
But bigger things like
Needing nothing more than simply being
With you, lying on a bed and
Having so much less than everything
You could ever want with them.
Going day by day wanting and wishing and
Needing but not having and
Loving and hating and
Crying and lying and
Painfully difficultly and barely and impossibly
Living on without it because you're just
Knowing and knowing that they could never
Ever even come close to wanting or
Wishing for you half the same way your
Need to breathe is dedicated to them.
They're never needing to have what you
Love but hate and want and need.
So you go on day by day trying to enjoy
All those fantastic little things.
Everything begins to remind you of them
Living and breathing and running and being.
Their smile in your head rather than
Next to you in bed.
And as you lie there alone just thinking of them you
They don't cry or lie
About their feelings for you because
Living on is easy for someone who is indifferent.