She told me she was cold so I plugged in the heater
But I plugged it into the wrong outlet and almost started a fire
So I unplugged and called my dad meanwhile she was still complaining that she was cold
She told me that she was sad and that she hadn't eaten all day
So I made her her favorite cake
But she said it was dry so she didn't eat it and stayed hungry
And then I was the one who was sad because I had failed
Her dad called her crying saying that he wanted to die
So she started crying and I asked if I could hug her
She said yes but then she pushed me away and told me to leave her alone
But we were at my house so where was I supposed to go?
She told me she wanted to die and that she couldn't do it anymore
So I called the police and she lied to them
And then she told me I was trying to kill her and it would be my fault if she killed herself
I told her that wasn't true and I tried to help her one last time but then she told me everything she'd ever said to me was a lie
She made it all up
And I believed her
Because I trusted her and everything she said so if she says it was all a lie then so it was
And I could get on with my life
She told me she lied about everything
And I told her to leave me alone
I told her I loved her more than anything but I'm not the one who caused any of it
I only tried to fix it
I wanted to make it all better
But you just wanted destruction you craved attention and chaos the world had to fall apart so I would fall at your feet trying to help you stand when you were already towering over me with your lies and your games and I did everything you asked of me and I did everything I could to keep you alive when I'd forgotten that I was alive too
I was alive and I had forgotten how to live my life
My entire life was about keeping you alive and that's no way to live
She told me she was worse than ever
That she can't take the pain much longer
I told her that she should talk to someone about it
And that that person couldn't be me
She needed a professional
She needed treatment
She needed medicine
But that's something she'd never admit she'd need
Because she said that allllll she ever needed was me
She's still alive
And so am I
I guess she really lied all that time
She called me once and I didn't answer
Because what could I say?
I hate you you almost killed me
And I know that's what you always wanted
She told me drunk people were truthful
She never talked about killing herself when she was drunk.
