I really want to die right now.
This day has been really bad.
So has the whole week.
Eh
Idk, im not sure what got to me.?
I just, idk.
I really haven't been feeling well, Mentally.
And i did something. For some reason.
And made it much worse...
I stopped talking to, Lets call em Jane for.Privacy.
So well. I didn't stop talking to her. But it's complicated..She's the one keeping me alive... Without her. I really don't have any reason to live.
I made it really weird, and awkward..Between us..I hate it.
Idk. I want it to be normal. But I made it so weird. And confusing.
She doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. I bet.
...
I've been talking more to, Lets call them Ali. I've been talking to her more, we kinda stopped for a bit, idk why?
We talked mostly in WhatsApp, but we changed to Snapchat..
That's what is kinda keeping me on me feet rn..?
I love Ali so much, omg. She's really great. She won't read this. So phew. I hope.
Ali is really adorable tho omg.
She told me she wanted to meet me this summer, but doesn't know when, lmdbdjdbdb, I freaked out, she wants to meet me. Omg, she lives a few hours away.. So its possible.. Heh.
...
Im really doubting that I will make it trough this year.. If I do, then wow *jaw drop*
I'm not sure. If I want to make it trough this year tbh?
If I start talking to Jane again, normally. Then maybe I might.
..
