Emotions scattered and views shattered
Mirrors graced with caution tape
So, I don't have to face my state
And its an emergency but I lack the urgency
To fix me because I love numb
I love being dumb to emotions
Where the motions don't have to be supressed by potent concoctions
My head doesn't ache at the thought of my self-destructive ways
Instead peace rains on the surface of my numbness
I intend to harness every bit of it
Because when my mind begins it cognition
My heart is going to suffer with all of the memories
Of me...you...us and all the things I've captured
Causing my pain to feel a rapture as it ruptures my heart's structure...
I mean that literally and figuratively
I feel the rhythmic pain every time my heart beats
Knowing that it is now empty
Blood still flows but that's all it does for me
You were the entity that gave it more responsibility
To me it was happiness, pride, love and home
A home for your smiles and words
My mind was the bank but my heart was the vault
I know the numbness will fade away
And my mind's doors will reopen
Causing my vault to be broken
