Don't you hate it when you make a mistake and u can't change it. I have made many mistakes, half of them I am happy I made the other half I would've died not to make those mistakes. I just don't get life, you get something beautiful but you end up destroying it trying to make it last. I make mistake after mistake trying to fix it, bit I can't. Eventually I end up going so far back that I can't do anything without making a mistake. I can't go forward, I can't go left, or right, and backwards brings me more problems than I can count. So dumb ass me tries going backwards to reverse what I did, and I fall into a pit of disaster. Right now I feel like shit, I wish I could climb out but the only way to get out is to forget everyone I know, ingore them. Most of them I can't unforeseen because of my feelings for them and the rest are easy to forget. I mean I care for them a lot, some more than others. I would say love but what is love, baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more ( Sorry I had to add that). Love is just a word to say you care for someone with all your heart, how am I suppose to say that when I don't even have a heart left in me. Ohhhhh what I would do to undo my mistakes, I would swim as far out into the ocean as I can, I would climb the highest mountain, adventure the longest cave, find a planet like Earth, even if it took me a billion years I would do it. I hate seeing my crush get hurt more than I hate my life. The biggest mistake I made, confessing my love for her, if I never did that I would get to see her beautiful smile a lot more everyday. I hate life...
