Vents/Personal issues

pt 1

I'm scared.

I'm scared that my boyfriend is going to drop out of high school. I want him to have a great future, and I've asked him many times to not drop out. He promises every time that he won't, but when I read his journal (he lets me read it, don't worry), he says that he's thinking about dropping out.

I've urged him to stay in school and go to college so many times.

I don't know what to do anymore. I've tried to help him get his grades up, but nothing's working. If his grades aren't above a D+ in the next 14.5 school days, he won't be able to stay in the school. (This is an Early College school so even in 8th grade, you have to have grades that are a C- or higher)

I'm confused. I have no clue how to help him anymore. He's really behind in his essay that was due last week. He's only on the first draft. I can't help him with it either because the teachers say "he can think for himself" but he doesn't know how to start the fucking essay. I feel like it's my fault that he doesn't know how to start it.

It's not his fault. It's mine. I couldn't help him enough. Now he feels like shit becuase he doesn't think he's smart enough. I'm sorry I couldn't help you, baby. 

God, I'm such a terrible girlfriend. I can't even help him on one stupid essay.