I was sitting here
thinking
crying
bleeding
i did it again
another scar
another question
more pain
why
can't it go away
the voices
in my head
telling me I'm shit
i wish people knew my pain
my regrets
no one knows the truth
i go to tell them
and i freeze
it silent
i can speak
cause i know it will change
the way they look at me
the happiness in there face
to know my laughter is fake
my smile is fake
its all a show
and i go home with the people
the people who dont care
dont know
dont listen
dont think
the people who i secretly hate
most in the world
I play it off
I tell myself its a game
and I win if I make it to 18
the day I am free to leave
to feel the weight fly off
to stop thinking of everything
the day i am no longer a freak
