All About You And My Lingering Feelings

Missing You

You told me I am sweet.
You told me I am beautiful.
You told me things that causes my heart to flutter and send the whole damn zoo inside my being

" Sweet kaayo ka."

You kissed me and told me you'd never let go.
You even told them that you're into and you'll pursue me.

" I like you."

Where are you my love? I am missing you. Badly. Everyday. And everyday is a misery of not hearing anything back from you. I only wanted you to at least be honest. Say if you'd still want me or not, I will understand. I needed the answer. I need an answer, sooner please, so that I may continue my life without leaving anything behind.

" Makigstorya kos imong kuya, untag magkaokay nami balik. Mauwaw ko motagad nimo knowing di pa mi okay sa imong mga kuya."

I know they will understand. Because I know they knew, I am purely happy when I'm with you.
Because if you would ask me, I am falling too. I already fell too deep that I may not find myself in the shallows. It's hard to breathe and manage to tell everyone to say I'm fine when actually I'm not.

You brought the happiness in me.
That night was all honesty and waking up the next day without you is a misery. Friends keeps telling me, this is something I will overcome. But I said no, till you say something  and end what's us while you tell it directly through my eyes.

I have been through a lot of miseries.
I wish you not seize the honesty I wanted to hear.
Because if those times were just your part time, atleast tell me...

so I know where I stand...

It's hard my love.