Crushes, you know why they call them that? Because you get crushed after. The pain I was going through no one understood. I hurt. I push people away because I dont want to hurt them. I also tried to make people happy when I wasnt. I cared for others more then myself. I fell for him and trusted him. I thought he'd be different. I thought he would let me rant to him and he would listen, but I was wrong. I should have got the hint that I annoyed you, but you got my hint that I liked you which made things worse. Know you're probably wondering who this person may be? Well I'll start off with his name, his name is kayden
.His short dark brown hair, his light brown eyes, and how tall he was, he was practically perfect to me. His friendly smile made you feel safe. Yet he pushed me away. When I ranted I thought he'd at least try and I make me feel better but all he would say is "ok", it was fine a first but when all I got was "ok" it start to feel like I was annoying him. I was right, I did annoy him. When I asked he said I was fine but in a way I just wanted him to be honest to me no matter how much it hurt me. I just wanted Him to tell me I was annoying him. He said I didn't tell him the truth but that's all I did. I tried to make conversation but it didn't work. I just wanted him to listen to me and I felt like he wadnt. Im sorry, my brain thinks it's okay for me to like you even though I know it's wrong. I want to push you away but at the same time pull you closer. You want me to be honest, well here I'll be honest. Your smile, it's friendly and perfect. Your eyes, they brighten up people's days. Your voice, makes people feel safe when they are around you. You are perfect. Know for the bad honest, in a way I hate you just because I like you but I can't stop wanting to talk to you. I hate your perfect smile, your perfect eyes, your perfect voice, your perfect everything I just hate it. You may not think you're perfect but you are, we have flaws yes but I see through those flaws that make you even more perfect. Yet I still hate you. I like you and I'm sorry for it really I am, why would I write this if I wasn't sorry. Anyone that dates you is lucky because I know you're a great guy. Yet you could never help me
