The apology
You don't have to apologizes
She loves you but did you love her too
Was that love pure or was it false hope
Please don't leave her in despair as you are and me
If you do I won't say the things you did wrong
I'll say the thing you lost
High school is just a trip
You come back you go
I wish you weren't so depressed
I want my son to be the best
Your special so don't hide it
But I'm not your real mother/father
So you don't need to obey
But please live a long day
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What really goes on
We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines
It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it lets out our screams
As well as our fears
It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention
Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting
Some call us psycho
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong
We hide the scars
Under jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen
We try to act fine
So no one'll know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show
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Mom where have you gone
I will never again
see your smiling face.
I will never again
feel your warm embrace.
I cry everyday
Wishing you'd come back.
Life just isn't the same
With the Mother I lack.
"I miss you mom,
Where have you gone?"
My days alone,
Just seem to long
I Scream and yell in anger
Wondering why your not here
I scream and yell in Sadness
Wishing you were near..
Somedays I feel
I can't handle the Pain
Somedays I cry knowing
That I'll never see your face again.
I looked up to the sky
and screamed ''Why Lord! Why!"
and as I fell to the ground
all I could do is cry..
Maybe God put you there
for a reason.
Maybe so I can see you
In every Season
Maybe Life Isn't so bad
with you gone.
Maybe you've been
With Me all Along
I miss you mom,
Where have you gone?
My days alone, are still to long..
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The truth
I'm great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.
Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, and almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lie Down,
and wait patiently for the day that I die.
I cry, I scream, I bawl, and sleep,
even though I have promises to keep.
I wait, and wonder, and cry some more,
And I ache and burn from my very core.
Then, I'm not alone, and the mask reappears:
Out goes the grief, pain and all of the tears,
As I am a happy person, cheerful all the day.
A world full of rainbow, not one shade of grey.
Of course I'm not okay, I'm not fine,
No matter how much I seem to shine.
I don't even know why I feel this...
Why my existence is one long, endless abyss.
But it is, and will be, so I cling to life,
As one day I might slip, and end it with a knife.
But, I'm still here, no matter what my dreams might say
And I hope that one day I will actually be okay.
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Loss
The loss of a loved one is so hard to face,
you just want to hide,
go somewhere and escape!
But death is something
we all must go through.
I know it's hard
when it's someone you loved and knew.
Just know now,
he is in a better place,
no more hurt or pain shall he face.
It seems unfair, and yes, this is true,
but he is in Heaven now
watching over me and you!
God has called him home to rest!!
And he's being well taken care of
Because God knows best!
