The one in love
The new girl that never believed in love came around to find herself in love with a guy she found the most amazing and beautiful guy ever. One day she saw a guy that she found one of a kind. Her name was Brelinn; she never believed in love because of her past, she was hurt so much that she didn't want to see what love can do for her. She started school at Elmer High School, and she was in a new state, where she didn't know anybody. Her past and how she looked at herself made it feel that nobody will ever love her for the person that she is. But one day she was walking around school and seen the person she fell in love with, to this day she still wants to be with that man. Brelinn had her best friend Aiden by her side. He supported Brelinn through everything she been through. Brelinn saw Joran around almost every day. One day Brelinn talked to her best friend and explained everything to him."Attempt to talk to him" Aiden tells Brelinn. Brelinn would get so afraid around him that a word would be so hard to get out. "You don't understand, it's so hard to talk near him." Aiden shook his head in disbelief. Aiden tried to help Brelinn with the insecurities she have. They were so bad that Aiden gave up in just 2 months. Aiden just told her to just write out what her mind was saying. Brelinn agreed to go along with it. Brelinn could just think of his voice and her mind would say a thousand words, so Brelinn would hurry and write down what her conscience would say about him, how she feels, or how she feels towards him. The first one she ever wrote was: "I stare at him when he's not looking, I feel safe when I feel you're around me. I just wish that you can realize that I care for you; I want to see you in your happiest state and mind. But it's so hard for me to just say hello or to check to see if you're ok or not. The only thing I can say to myself is "try tomorrow" but It still seem that I fail at speaking to you. I'm trying here; none of my friends are realizing the battle I have inside my mind when I want to say your name. Patience is the key that is what I'm standing for right now." Brelinn wanted to cry because she realized that she can do better than what she doing, she starting patronizing herself. Brelinn felt so bad she started crying and continued to put herself down for months.
Aiden would help out the emotions she was feeling, Brelinn would save so much inside her because she was scared of what people would say. Brelinn personal life affected so much with what she do or say. Brelinn parents gave her and her older brother up when they were kids and they had to live with her grandmother on her father's side. Brelinn has a happy and joyful life without them. The only time she would get unhappy and off track was when her parents would try and come back the only person she trusted mainly was her father. She loved her father because he attempted to try and raise her and her brother. Then her mother did something terrible and it changed her whole world around. Her mother went to jail for murder. After she got out she tried to come back in both of their lives but Brelinn refused to accept her back in her life. Her mother decided to take her brother away from her. Brelinn was very close with her brother, they went through together. That really affected her in a way that she treated so many people different. She continued to live with her grandmother and grandfather. Brelinn was in 9th grade when her grandfather died, through the coping it felt as if everyone she cared about passed on or turned their backs on her, she lost all hope. Brelinn had to teach herself not to put herself down for the little mistakes that she makes. Little by little it got better she learned to love herself for who she really was. Many months later Brelinn made many new friends. But she kept the secret between her and Aiden. Brelinn feelings grew so much that she couldn't even look at another man the same. Brelinn grew to love Jordan, but Jordan barely noticed Brelinn. Brelinn loved Jordan so much, when Jordan would be in a relationship with another female Brelinn would bawl for days at a time. Brelinn ran out of ideas to do so she started asking her friends about Jordan. Many of her friends knew of him and knew Jordan as a friend, as she had many good things that were said about him. Another thought she wrote was "Its crazy how many people know you as a friends and I can't even look at you without shaking. It's impossible for my nerves to stay calm, I wish you can realize how much I want you to just to be happy but I also want you to be happy with me but happy with me. I can imagine a future about me and you but you can even see me as a human being that I am. Its hurts for me to see you getting ran over by a person that doesn't care about you. The only thing I can do is stand there and say nothing." Brelinn walked to class and sat in the back and started crying and refused to talk to anyone.
