Rollercoaster Emotions

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The doorbell rang and Yamada went out to greet whoever was outside the door. When he reached the entrance and opens it, he saw Yuya smiling like a child. He was wearing a black shirt, a silver dog tag necklace and cargo pants while carrying a backpack that looked like it might give up anytime soon. He greeted so loud that everyone inside Yamada's apartment heard his voice.

"Hey," Yamada greeted back and shook his head to the direction of his backpack, "What's with the huge backpack?" he asked.

"Oh, you know, I bought more food." Yuya answered, stressing the last two words.

Yamada chuckled and Yuya stepped inside the house, then the both of them walked toward the living room where their other friends were, laughing and throwing each other throw pillows that they could get their hands on. Everyone settled down when Chinen saw the two come in to the room, "Woah Yuya, big backpack you got there." he greeted.

"Let me guess, your mom's rice balls or just a bunch of junk foods, or both?" Inoo asked while walking around Yuya and pretending to have a magnifying glass in his hand.

"Both." Yuya grinned and sat on an armchair near the television then the both of them laughed.

"Yuto isn't here yet, is he?" Yamada suddenly asked the group in the middle of the room whilst looking around to find the tall guy; his knees faintly bumping the coffee table.

Yabu sat on the sofa in front of the coffee table. The sofa was on the other side of the table so the table was acting as a gap between him and Yamada, "Not yet. Have you called him?" he asked with a worried look.

"Yes, but he's not answering it. I messaged him as well and saw that he read it but he hasn't replied. I just guessed that he was still busy preparing to go out but almost an hour has already passed and he isn't here yet." Yamada replied with a look of annoyance and concern.

"I called him a little while ago too but he didn't answer," Hikaru updated them while leaning on the wall, admiring the side profile of Yabu sitting on the sofa that was four steps away from him.

"Hmm," Keito chimed in from the other side of the room, "That's weird. Let's call him again and if he doesn't answer, let's call his house," he suggested.

Daiki who was standing beside the window immediately informed the group that he'll call Yuto at that moment, shaking his phone to bring emphasis to what he said.

Seconds that felt like months to Yamada passed by and finally, Yuto picked up. "Yuto!" Daiki exclaimed and everyone except for Daiki looked at each other. "Where are you?" he continued and waited for Yuto to answer but when the other line was finished explaining, Daiki couldn't understand his answer clearly.

"Huh? I can't understand what you're saying because your answers get interrupted. A wheel? What? Why can't you come here?" he asked louder, guessing that Yuto may not be hearing his voice that well.

Yamada snatched Daiki's phone and put it on his ear, "Where are you? Why aren't you coming? This is the first time in a while that all of us can hang out together and you're not here," Yamada said with a slightly high tone. He was low-spirited but as usual his blueness looked like somewhat annoyance. Some people that may not know Yamada completely might get a bit angry if he talked to them like that but the members especially Yuto understand that Yamada means no harm, he is just not showy of all his emotions.

"I'm really sorry that I couldn't tell you earlier that I can't go--Park right now," the other line said.

Still confused of Yuto's whereabouts because his sentences stop abruptly, Yamada asked him again. Yuto was about to repeat his answer when Yamada's attention caught an enthusiastic voice of a man saying, "Welcome to Tokyo Ferris Wheel of Love! Your relationship will surely blossom if you ride it!" followed by a girl's voice calling Yuto with a 'chan' and exclaiming "It's finally our turn now!" in the background. Yamada clenched his teeth and tried to stop the habitat of his thoughts from thinking horrifying things. He took a deep breath and asked Yuto who that girl was and where he was again but Yuto cut in, "Really need to go now, Ryosuke. I promise--talk to you later." and swiftly ended the call.

Yamada didn't even move an inch, he just looked at the ground while holding Daiki's phone. He was hoping that Yuto might call him any second and tell him that it was all a prank while hearing his euphonious laugh but sadly, he didn't call back. He tried to think that maybe he misunderstood what happened but the toxic thoughts kept on beating his good thoughts, making everything inside of him caught in hysteria.

"Who is that girl? Are they going out? Why didn't Yuto tell me? Didn't we tell each other not to hide anything important? Why did he choose to go there instead of hanging out with us?" his mind and heart screamed.

He didn't notice that the other members were worried of his sudden state and asking him questions except when Chinen finally went in front of him and jolted his shoulders back and forth. Yamada looked at him attempting to show no signs of any emotions but it failed because Chinen still saw that his eyes have a glimpse of melancholy, "What's wrong?" he asked.

Yamada clutched his pants, "Do you guys recall any time where Yuto mentioned a girl? Like going out?" he asked, breathing slow yet hard while digging through the havoc of his thoughts and feelings, searching for any scenario of Yuto mentioning a girl or going out with a girl. The clueless members gave a negative answer.

"Yuto," Yamada paused and took a deep breath, "I think Yuto has a girlfriend."