September 4th

I Guess I've never really been the type to fall for people quickly, it usually takes a while as I get very scared to fall. I had went to a Sleep over at my Friend Meghan's house. The people attending were Meghan's sister Sarah, our friend Sarah, and someone who I guess I never really spoke to, Thalia.

The sleep over was really fun. We had pizza and played truth or dare, I guess it was typical? I knew Thalia was bisexual, but when I found out she was gay I got really happy. Everyone else at the sleep over was straight, so I guess it was nice to have someone like myself. I remember for some reason I couldn't stop getting really nervous around her, maybe it was because we never talked much?

We were playing truth or dare and me and her had to Eskimo kiss, which is simple, but it wasn't. I remember getting really nervous any time we almost did it. Thalia though, would always move away, and 20 minutes later, no kiss. My mind went to bad places, telling me that maybe it was because she didn't like me.

We went swimming in Meghan's pool, and I was kinda forced to show my stomach. As someone who's overweight and hates their body, I was scared, but it ended up being okay. Thalia on the other hand? I don't know what it was, but I couldn't stop staring. Not to sound perverted, but she had a really beautiful body (is that weird to say?) She's thin, which size doesn't matter to me anyways, and she didn't have a lot of what people want, but it didn't matter to me. It was dark outside and she looked absolutely beautiful whenever the house lights would touch her face.

Hours later, everyone had pretty much passed out, except me and her. I was in a group chat of some friends, one which goes to our school, and I decided to add Thalia. This resulted in us taking sleepy pictures and videos of each other and sending them. Eventually, at almost 3am, we went to sleep. We slept on the floor about foot and a half away from each other, and I wanted so badly to get closer and cuddle her.

I guess it's safe to say that I fell. Hard.