3 a.m Thoughts

Alone

Loneliness. Do you really know what it feels like? Maybe its going to school and your best friend is absent or maybe opening your phone after a long day to be welcomed by no messages or notifications. But those are just the clichés, let me give you some insight on what true loneliness is. Loneliness is sitting in a room full of people and yet you feel singled out, it's lying in bed longing for the warmth of another human but not just any human, your human, the one you miss though you haven't met them just yet. It's wanting space from family and friends and actually wanting to be alone and it's funny how that works because I want the lonely feeling to leave yet I want to be left in it. I've been facing it for so long that my body has grown so accustomed that I feel safe in it. Ever since I lost you I had to face it then eventually embraced it. This book is made up of my 3 a.m thoughts and this first part is how it always begins. Alone

Songs to listen to when feeling alone 

-Kodaline~ All I want

-My Chemical Romance~ Cemetery Drive

-Bedroom~ Nothing Lasts

~Varsity~ So Sad So Sad