When your lonely, you feel like there is a part of you missing. No one to talk to and nowhere to go. It's the thought of nobody liking you that triggers my mind. I feel like I've just been sucked into a deep hole and I'm trapped and can't get out. Maybe I'm being too dramatic. But the thing is, I've been stuck with this thought inside my head for my whole life. I feel like people avoid me. I don't know what I've done or what happened, but nothing has ever been the same since my best friend left my life.
Ruby Midnight. Yes that is my name. Your average 15 year old girl, or I was before my best friend Charlotte moved on. She was always there for me. Through thick and thin. And when I first heard those words 'I'm leaving', it felt like my soul had been ripped out. Apart from Charlotte, I didn't really have that many friends. I had a couple of people I spoke to but never really counted them as friends. They only spoke to me because Charlotte was there. Everyone loved Charlotte. But somehow, I was just Ruby. People only spoke to me when Charlotte was around. But when she wasn't, they avoided me like the plague. I just didn't understand it. And I still don't now.
Charlotte always used to take me to really nice places. We used to hang out all the time. But now it just feels like there is half of me missing. We were like sisters. Even though all the other people at my school loved her, she only really liked me. I was hers and she was mine. We both agreed to not be in relationships with boys so that nothing could break our friendship. This continued until that terrible day when she said those two fearful words. 'I'm leaving'. You are probably wondering why I don't stay in contact with her any more. That is because the place she went is impossible to be reached until life takes you there. And there is no possible way to contact them. Because yes. A year ago, my best friend Charlotte, died.
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Hey! So I know this first part is quite dark but trust me it gets better! I hope you enjoyed this first part and I will be writing the second very soon! Thanks!
