Diaries

April 3, 2017

  I just left Wishbone. It was really hard to do so, even if you think,"Wishbone's not that important." Wishbone was my life. I spent every second I could on there. Mostly just talking to people, barely making any cards. 

  Then one day, a few days ago, I saw a post that said "Repost if you support LGBT!" And I don't, so I made a card just putting it out there that I would not repost those cards, and they shouldn't get mad. Of course I was expecting people to get mad, I just didn't think it would be that many. 

  I ended up getting a lot of hate about it, which is part of the reason I left. Most of the reason was because of my personal life. Always failure, or messing up in some way. At school I was getting lower and lower grades (not too bad, but not great either) and I felt like nobody was on my side. My friends have started completely ignoring me in most conversations. They seem to think I never know what I'm talking about. 

  My parents do that, too. Every minor mistake, they notice it. Every low grade. They always get mad at me, and when I do break down (it's happening more and more frequently) they ask me what's wrong like they have no idea. Of course I always say it's nothing, and then they get frustrated with me for crying for no reason. 

  I just feel alone most of the time. I know God is always with me, but recently it's like I'm alone in this world. Everyone tells me I'm not, but those are just words.