Broken (Completed)

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We were broken the last time I recall the word 'us' .

Walang tayo, walang ikaw at ako.

We don't recognize each other's face because we are strangers.

I asked for an advice...

Which comes from my bestfriend, who is your girlfriend now...

"To break up with him..." that was the thing she said.

It wasn't an advice nor a threat, because it is simply a command.

What did I do?

I did it...

I indeed broke up with him.

It wasn't my fault.

It was my mind's fault.

The next day Iwas walking down the alleyway.

I saw them.

I saw my bestfriend and my ex-boyfriend.

They didn't know that I know their little hiding relationship.

But I was just walking with tears in my eyes, watching them kissing.

Groceries scattered around the floor, which I bought minutes ago.

The moment they will turn at my direction, I immediately run at a nearby mailbox to slump my body and hide.

It was so desperate of me thinking...

that he'll chase me after we broke up.

My bestfriend is still sticking to me, even though it hurts that behind my laughs was hatred because of her.

But I only did one thing...

the thing that she said was right.

I am here with her, eating Baked Macaroni.

Laughing fakely at her words about what happened to her this weekend.

Which was having fun with her family which the same time that...

I found out that they were kissing.

She didn't even bring the topic of my relationship.

I was very hurt that time in the fact that she lied to me.

It was Math classes but I was completely drowned with the thoughts in my head.

Why did he do that?

It was this late recess I was walking down the hallway to my locker.

And the thing that I saw him...

...save me from having a red stain spot on my skirt.

He even bought me a napkin.

And he just keep doing that without saying anything...

and turning back leaving me dumbfounded.

That was I thinking...

He just hug me from behind which I thought that he will come back to me and make things right.

But it was just because of my red stain spot on my skirt. 😃 I'm happy.

The next day was him and me accidentally bumped in the hallway with books started to scattered around.

He was helping me picking up the books, in the same place where we first met.

He became more paler than he was.

He also wear caps.

He doesn't smile.

And I was starting to ask, why?

Despite that he doesn't like wearing covering garments.

But for now he does wear like it was winter even though it's August not December.

I was worried because I still love him...

forever.

It was the third I'm not seeing him in school.

I didn't know how worried I am, because I even search for him...

knowing that he doesn't attend school.

Even my bestfriend was nowhere to be found.

I was worrying too much, even though there's no us.

My bestfriend once bring up that topic but she's not looking straight to my eye, when she said he's happy...

with someone else...

And I know that someone else is her,

many thoughts came up in my mind that even reading a book now is I can't understand.

4th day for now, he is attending school.

I always caught him watching me but he immediately break the eye contact.

I still hate him for not chasing me after we broke up.

I barely eat lunch and snacks.

I barely recite in all of my doings.

I barely walk outside alone.

I don't even know why,

It all started when I'm starting to see them.

My ex and my bestfriend.