Today is going to be different. I'm sick of everyday feeling like yesterday. It makes the days longer and abolishes the anticipation of tomorrow I used to crave. This life has become to systematic. I need something...new. I'm already mad in many ways, but like they say, you learn something new everyday.
I wish I could tell you I do learn something new everyday, I'd love to say it just as much as you might like to hear it. That's just not how things work. You see, what you hear in songs is all coming from people who've made it. Not bullshit, just sugar coated despair to make you feel good about yourself.
There are a lot of things I wish to be. Confident, sane, wholesome, loved, valued, and accepted.
Is it sad I don't know what those feel like anymore? Is it that unnerving for me to look back on my past so much that I hate myself? I don't know the answers...but what I do know is, the one thing no one can ever take away from me, is my big-ass god-damn mother-fucking MOUTH!
