Today was one of those days
I woke up and I could feel it
The lump in my throat
The pit in my stomach
This was a bad day
A day that called for minimal makeup
Lest you wipe your face
The kind where you put on waterproof mascara
As you knew you would cry
One of those days where the slightest thing will set you off
One of those cry yourself to sleep days
I don't know what causes these days to happen
I only know I try and deal with it
Conceal don't feel as it's said
But pressure builds up
And soon you'll burst
Feelings that you've held back
Scorch your cheeks
The words you've held back
Make themselves known as choked out sobs
The heartache you've been trying to ignore
Is ever present, more than before
It's all magnified by ten
Your world is caving in
You'll hold your feelings back
As you try to stay on track
But they just keep spilling
A water fall at the edge of my river
Words filter from feelings
And feeling's all that's left
Gravity is at work
Pulling the water down
I have a feeling I might drown
In my thoughts
In my feelings
And I'm bringing you along
So grab your boat
Grab your floaties
And down the falls we go
The churning water swallows us up
The last of my sanity
Eating away at the rocks below
Don't hit your head
They'll break your heart
More than it was before
Up we'll surface
Drenched in feelings
Dripping with fears and love
Swim to the edge and watch the swirl
A whirlpool of things you can't say out loud
Back to reality
You've calmed down slightly
And everything's not as great as you make it out to seem
You hide behind fake smiles
Cheery good mornings
And big bright hugs
But inside you're dull
You've only managed to polish the outside
Forgetting the inside can dim as well
You are just reflecting light thrown by others
You don't give out any shine
But you smile anyway
So you don't have to explain
And gravity can't take its hold
And pull you down the falls again
They might be pretty to look at
And it might be fun on the way down
But the crawl back up
In soaking wet clothes
That's the part that gets you
The evidence on your face
Your eyes still stinging from the salt
Your breath still hitched in your throat
Your mind still traveling in a blur
I prefer to sit and watch
And not go for that swim
But today was just one of those days
The kind that left you wishing you were more
-V
