Just random writing of mine

F*ck it

I don't care anymore. I sick of getting yelled at. I'm sick I'm feeling worthless. I hate being called a tranny. I cant stand how she treats me. I wish she would leave. I wish I could leave. But I won't. I'm too much of a coward. It sucks you know. The fact she left. This is another she. The first she is evil. Demonic. Gets enjoyment out of pain. This she is beautiful. She left too early though. With three kids. Her heart gave up. In a different way than mine has given up. Should I just leave? It's not like I'd be missed. But I cant leave. I need to stay so that I can escape this place and not this life. I just have to tough it out. Then when 18 comes I'm out the door. It cant come soon enough. Sometimes I feel like it won't. But F*ck It. Not like anyone really cares right?