What Now? (Book 2) [l. hemmings]

Chapter 35

A smile spreads across my face and let out a deep breath.

"You look really happy." She states.

"I am. I love Luke and to know he wants to marry me, it's just.. I can't explain it." I reply.

"One question.." She starts, "What would you say if he asked you? I mean if you aren't ready for it I would talk to him without letting him know you know."

"No, I would say yes." I tell her.

"You didn't even think about it." She replies.

"I-" I start but stop talking when I hear somebody come onto the bus.

Luke walks in and smiles, "You guys coming?"

I nod, standing up but Jess doesn't move.

"I'm scared to bring Zoe out there. I can hear the girls from on the bus." She says.

"Why are they so loud anyways?" I ask.

"Usually they're not this loud." Luke replies.

Jess sighs in response.

"Hold on one second." He says walking off the bus.

Jess looks up at me, "This all is stressing me out, I can't wait to leave. I just have to remember I'm here so Calum gets more time with Zoe."

"Jess, relax, it's going to be fine." I smile.

"Come on out guys!" Luke shouts from the door of the bus.

Jess puts Zoe in her carrier, before covering it with the blanket and carrying her off the bus. She follows behind me as we step out. 

Luke's standing there smiling.

"What do you think?" He asks about the now quieted crowd. "Impressive, huh?"

I playfully roll my eyes, "You're such a loser."

The second Jess steps of the bus, Luke quickly looks up at her. 

"Jess come through this way." Luke calls.

By the time we get inside Jess is basically shaking.

"Jess are you okay?" I ask.

"Yea, just the crowd made me really anxious." She mumbles, "I didn't think all of this would be this bad." 

Luke runs off and Calum walks by us but stops noticing Jess isn't at her best.

"What's wrong babe?" He questions.

"Nothing, I'm fine." She lies.

"You sure?" He asks.

She nods, "Go do what you need to do."

"Alright, love you." He smiles at her, walking off.

"Jess are you sure you're alright?" I ask.

We make it the guys dressing room, before she answers.

Jess sighs, "No.."

She's on the verge of tears, so I take Zoe from her.

Putting  her head in her hands she sniffles, "I can't do this."

Good thing nobody else is in here.

"What do you mean?" I question.

"I'm getting anxiety from a small crowd outside, I don't know if having Zoe makes it worse, but..I'm terrible with this." She mumbles.

Calum walks in but Jess doesn't notice so she continues.

"I feel like I'm not going to be a good mother to Zoe. I can't give her what she needs." She sniffles again.

"Jess are you crazy?" Calum speaks up.

"Shit." She whispers.

"Were you not going to tell me you felt this way?" He walks over to her and picks her up, "You're going to talk to me."

He walks out with Jess while she complains.

"Well looks like it's just you and me." I tell the tiny baby as I put the carrier down and moving the blanket. 

"Zoe, what do you think about Luke proposing to me?" I say.

I probably sound insane right now.

She yawns and I smile, "It's kinda scary to think about though."

"So now you're talking to a baby that doesn't understand you?" Luke chuckles from the doorway.

"Maybe." I reply.

"What's scary though?" He asks.

He makes his way over to me and sitting down.

"Oh, um nothing." I tell him.

He groans and rolls his eyes. 

I look from Zoe to him, "You know I love you, right?"

He smiles, "And I love you, I always will."

Well I would hope he always will if we wants to propose.

I look at Zoe and Luke places his hand on the side of my face, turning my head to look at him. 

"Forever, right?" He questions with a small smile.

I return the smile, "Forever, Luke."

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