Feelings

Chapter 1 Desire

We've all felt the pull for something to happen, but unless we do something first, the thing we desire to happen usually doesn't happen.

As a kid, I desired to have friends and fit in. I believe every kid desires the same. I never fit in even when I tried. I thought I had friends, but they disappeared except for the three or four that hold out their hands to me. I was always too this or too that and it made me sad.

Years later, I'm heading for graduation. My desires as have my circumstances have changed through the flow of time. I barely get along with my family because I'm restless. I need to spread my wings and fly if only from one branch to another. I have a few friends, but whether it be me or the other person, one of us is always pushing the other friend away even if it's unintentional. Now, I desire the feeling of reassurance. I feel so alone. I want someone to pull me into a hug and whisper sweet reassurances into my ear. I also want that person to make me laugh and smile when I want to cry. I want someone to heal this broken heart of mine and make it whole. I want my family to quit putting each other down.

I've always desired to be a thinner person but then I discovered that I was wearing the wrong clothes. I also decided not to weigh myself unless I had to.

Desire is like a virus that spreads and changes. It never ceases to stop. More, more, and more is always needed to fill the hole that desire creates because desire never stops making holes in the hearts of human beings