you and me (niall horan)

my inner demons

chapter eight

niall p.o.v

I walk into my hotel room which will be my home for the next week. I toss my leather jacket onto the couch. I sit at the edge of the bed and turn on the T.V and skim throgth the channels on HBO "the perks of being a wallflower" is on its at the part were charlie has he's mental break down. that wouldn't such a bad idea breaking down for at lest a little while. I start to think of Katelynn about her perfect smile her beautiful eyes. I can't wait till tommrow. Its so close yet so far away. "niall" laim said interuping my thougths. "hey mate" I respond. fiddiling my own hands. "I just wanted to check up on you. how are you feeling." liam tells me. "I'm nervous and I no clue why. I mean, I sing in front of millions of people and I'm getting nervous over one girl." I say doing anything to keep my hands busy. liam walks over and sits beside me. he puts his hand on my sholder. "I know how nerve racking this can be. but if it's ment to be it will be." laim said smiling. what he says makes me feel a whole lot better. laim pats me on the knee and standing up walk out of the room. I am alone once again I walk over to the dresser and get a pear of flannal pajama bottems. I walk into the bathroom. I take out my phone and open pandora the first song that plays is snow patrol "Chasing cars". I undress and step into the shower the water is nice and hot. I think about what happened to get me to this point. the fact that I can be the happiest but also the most lonely. when I'm done in the shower I step out and put the cloths on that I picked out grab my phone and set it on the bedside table and over to the part of the dresser were I keep all pills are I take both my Abilify and my lexapro. I only have 6 pills left so I'll have to call my doctor to get some more. I flop on the king size bed and cover up with the silk blue sheets. and I fall asleep thinking of katelynn.

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Theres a wemon dressed in all white with a veil drawn over her face and who is holding a dozen blue roses. there's song playing over head one that I have heard before but can't think of at this moment. I look down at my feet I seem to be wear fancy black shoes I'm also wearing a suit. I look back at the wemon in the white dress who is getting closer and closer and closer to me. she is finaly standing right in front of me. the music stops and every one sits. I left the veil covering the wemons and it reveils that the wemon is katelynn. An man with white hair and glasses intreups the silents. "dearly beloved we are here today join this man and wemon in holy mathrmony." thats then I realize that this a wedding but not just any wedding it's mine and katelynn's wedding. I smile at the thougth of me and katelynn getting married. "the bride and groom have written there own vows." the paster said. every one looks at katelynn who pulls out a small folded peice paper from one of her gloves. "My dearest niall, evey since we first I knew I wanted to be with you forever. there were sometimes that I wanted to give up on us. but you never let me. and you never gave up on me. that is all I every wanted from someone and you gave me every thing I every wanted. I vow, that I will love you till the end of the world. thank you for not giveing up on me." Katelynn said looking right at me on her final sectence. I have no clue what she is talking about when she say to not give up on her. I realise everyone is looking at me. My mouth is suddenly dry I have no clue what to do. I look at katleynn who smiles and whispers to me "pocket," I look in my pocket and in it is a small note. that reads. "baby, I love you more then any other being or thing in this world. you are my everything I love you if you told me to me to jump how high. you are my angel I love you."

and thats when I wake up.