Alone

(MOSTLY written in couplets)

What did I say to make you hate me? What did I do to drive you away?

All I wanted was for you to stay.

You made me think I wasn't enough. You made me question why I was here.

You made me want to leave this place, and never reappear.

What's wrong with me? What did I do?

But now I realize, it wasn't me. It was you.

You leaving me helped so much. You helped me see the good in people, because you had so little for yourself.

Yes, I questioned. Yes, I cried. Yes, I thought I would have rather died.

But without you, I wouldn't know. Our whole friendship was just for show.

You're popular now, you have friends. I'm not cool, or pretty, I hide behind the camera lens.

My pictures show the pain I've felt, when you left my side.

And my mind shows the pain you caused, when you broke my pride.

But now it's returned.

I'm confident, funny, I like reading,music,and art, I eat tons of Nutella and thousands of smarties.

You play lacrosse, talk to boys, and love going to parties.

We're more different than we've ever been.
I thought I wasn't seen.

Then you opened your mouth. You spoke civilly to me, like we'd never fallen out.

But I think you've forgotten my life after you left, the tears, the anger, the pout.

You expect me to drop and forgive.

You made me not want to live!
How could I just forgive?

So I was nice. Played the part in this little game.
Then I turned back around.

And I talked to friends, real friends, who agree and love and cherish and are kind and will always be there...

Can't you see now, I don't care.