There's blood on the tiled floor in my bathroom. My shirt is soaking it up or making more of a mess. I can't really see anything besides faint yellow and peach colors. I can hear my name being called. I can't bring myself up from the ground; I'm going numb. Oh god... is this the end. I feel my neck start to tighten like a snake on a branch. the tiles start to break and shatter. ''what's happening" I ask myself with my cracked voice. My eyes can't stay open. I need to get up . for tyler. I get enough strength to touch my legs. I feel the cuts and my oils on my skin burn them. the blood... the blood isn't mine... I finally get to open my eyes and see tyler. Tyler in the bath tub. I reached as far as my arms could reach to grab the soaked note. I started shaking. "dear friend. you cut an important vein in your leg... I'm afraid we both can't make it." it was hard to tell the difference between blood and water. I'm shaking even more. I'm actually shaking a lot like I'm having an attack oh my gosh. I open my eyes. tyler standing over me. all he could say is my name. my non-reassuring name. "why'd you do it" tyler whispers. "do what" i said with deep meaning. I truly don't understand. "you were standing in the mirror, you broke it and it cut your leg, I put some alcohol on it but it needs stitches. Jenna's here to help; she can sew" "it... it was a dream? Oh, thank god." I started to break down i wasn't crying over my soon death. I was crying over his. Tyler doesn't think I know. "thank you Jenna" Jenna started to stitch it up. i knew she knew it too. "why'd you do it..." I didn't wanna answer it was too childish and stupid. "because if you leave... i leave. i want you to hold my hand and lead me. i don't wanna go by myself. i know you're. you're..." i couldn't finish my breath. meaningless verses ran through my head. "that I'm dying." tyler's voice cracked with sadness. "tell our dad i'm sorry" i said. "for what?" tyler voice became stern and manly. "i'm not true to myself & pure to you" i couldn't stop. "this isn't about my cancer right?" i got off the floor. i hugged tyler and jenna. "i need to go" "what don't go" tyler yelled but it was too late i was already running. i couldn't stop running. i was running so fast. the stitches started to pull. i ran up the fire escape. i made it. i made it to the top. the building. i limped over to the ledge. i could hear tyler screaming. i stepped onto the cement ledge and fell back. the last thing i saw where clouds. then black. i woke up. "jon you have 10 min till you have to perform be prepared" stage managers calling me out. i could hear the "BELLION BELLION'' from the clique. it was never real.
