I am cursed

I'm cursed part two

     I am still in that dark place I still feel alone. I know there are others outside that could help me with my darkness and my own demons. I just don't feel their presents I'm trying to help myself and intern help others I just can't figure out how to help myself I know there are other stars that have been in that spot where they have had a door white and have overtime burn brighter and brighter until the rep for capacity. I dream for that I dream to be as bright as I could be. I'm scared to burn that right I don't want to burn out. I seem like I am trying to be the brightest I can be in in the meantime I am burning out and I am burning brighter but then I am taking a step back and doing my life a little bit each time. I just want to find a way to burn his bridges I can without repercussions or doing my white other stars are wondering how they can help but I need to do this myself as well as the fact that I don't know how others can help me or me to help myself even I'm trying and I'm striving to fight and I'm striving to be the brightest I can be into illuminate the sky as much as I can, I'm scared and I have no idea how to get there feel like I keep getting better but I feel like I'm doing a little bit too I feel like it's similar to the three. Steps forward and two steps back I strive and I pray and I try so hard to be the brightest and aluminate the sky I'm just lost in a fraction of the sky was limited stars I know bright stars are there that can help but I don't know how. Please help.