I knew loving you was wrong
all my friends and family hate you.
I lie to myself saying you won't be around long
to them you're at no value.
But to me you are everything
you're so intoxicating.
To everyone else you're just abusive
but they don't feel this amazing elevation.
We danced so many nights in the rain
I just love the feeling of your presence.
Ignoring every ounce of bane
my worries were always with absence.
Numb to any pain.
Eventually your true colors surface
all you're doing is tearing me apart!
I'm a disgrace!
we didn't have this agreement in the start.
I knew fucking with you was wrong!
never thought I'd be left all alone.
I am no longer strong
you're pulling me closer to a gravestone!
You leave bruises on my arms and leave me to drown
you've done everything I feared.
Constantly bringing me up and dropping me down!
I can't seem to care much
you made me this way!
My heart cold and empty to the warmest touch
you led me atray.
You've consumed me
inside out, I slowly decay.
You only made me everything I never wanted to be
I use to love feeling you!
now I wear long sleeves to conceal.
I have to bid you adieu
my soulless body will never truly heal.
I'll always be a broken
every day I battle my demons.
My pain is always unspoken
inside I'm painfully screaming!
Every night tears fall warm and cut cold
you no longer have that hold.
Living life is easy
but I'm fighting to stay alive.
As I continue to house my demoms inside.
