Hi, my name is Lexi Devries. Today I am writing in my journal, it seems when I write down my feelings on paper it makes more sense and I don't stress about things as much, so my parents got me a journal that is blue and sparkly, so yes it draws a lot of attention. I don't bring it to to school a lot, but today I felt like I had to. As of right now I am in Ms. Bell's Junior history class 4th hour, you can say she is kind of strict, but not too much. I sit in the back of the classroom for the most part. I have brown hair and brown eyes, I am not perfectly skinny, but close, I am not perfect at everything. I have three best friends at this school, and they are all equally amazing, I may not hang out with all of them the same amount of time, but I qualify them all as the same level on my best friend's scale. First of all there is my friend who I hang out with the most is Charlotte Lenehan who has dirty blonde hair and blue-green eyes who is not perfectly skinny and very pale, just like me (not the pale part) , in second would be my friend Leila Barnes (a year younger than I) with long black hair and brown eyes and fairly skinny and dark skinned and then Leila's older brother by one year Jaymes Benson with dirty blonde hair and hazel eyes and fairly skinny and very pale. I know the two siblings have different last names but they are full siblings, not step or half siblings.
Let me tell you about the first time I met this really dreamy guy during my ninth grade English class 5th hour with dreamy blue eyes who could make you fall in love instantly. A tall boy with dark brown hair slightly pale with dreamy ocean blue eyes. I didn't know that we were going to have a new kid in our English class. I have choir class the hour right before my English class in the middle school, and then have to run back to the high school for my next hour, which is next door, but it seems further than it actually is. I remember walking in that day from choir being exhausted and ready to sit down at my seat and do my work, but when I walked in I saw that someone was in my assigned seat so I had told my teacher Mr. Simms that someone was in my assigned seat, he responded back with "Just sit in the seat next to him to the left." I slowly walked over not remembering who that person was, since I didn't recognize him. I slowly sat down, and it seemed like he turned his head in slow motion and I instantly fell in love with him at the first glance I had of him, Hayes Johnson. A very handsome guy who made me day dream for what seemed like the whole hour, he snapped me out of my daydreaming when he started talking and introduced himself, " Hi, I'm Hayes Johnson." I tried to keep cool and replied back with "Hi I'm Lexi Devries" I could feel the small hairs on the back of my neck stand up by him just starring at me, I felt as if my face was blushing really bad and it was super obvious, (I'm really bad at not blushing, it seems like I do it a lot).
Everyday we would talk to each other in class and interrupt learning time quite a bit, people got very annoyed by it, but I didn't mind it. After class I told Charlotte about him and said, "He is really dreamy, it's like he has got me under a love spell or something, I usually don't believe in things like love at first sight, but because of him I believed it, but only with him. Everyday I couldn't wait to go to English class just to go talk to him and just to be near him. Everyday we got to know more and more about each other. Eventually he told me his middle name, and well I usually don't tell people my middle name unless they are my best friends or close family friends, but I told him my middle name, then we exchanged our snap chat names, and as soon as I would get home I would hurry up and finish my homework just to snap chat him. I had changed his name on my snap chat as soon as i knew how to, to his whole name and some cute heart emojis. You could say I am the cute kind when I have a crush, but this was more than a little crush after just a little while of talking to him. As soon as I got a Facebook he was one of the first ones that I added.
It's been a while I have had a couple boyfriends and he had a couple of girlfriends and now we are both single, and I really want to be with him, but the thing is he doesn't accept the fact that I like him. He is that kind of is a jerk, but at the same time it drives you crazy because you think he is just so hot that you don't think anything he does is wrong. And something else about him that drives me crazy is that he has tattoos and I've seen it. I don't know why, but I just seem to fall for bad boys kind of thing. I just find them very attractive. He is the kind of guy who would beat up someone just to protect his little brothers (I find that VERY ATTRACTIVE). He posts things on Facebook about like things that he wants in a relationship, I'm like hello I want the same things and I want to date you, JUST ACCEPT IT ALREADY!!!!!!! He actually came from one our enemy schools, but I just ignore that fact and I usually hate anybody from any of our enemy schools ( just because they go to that school).
Every time he walks by me in the hallway I don't just go a little bit crazy, I almost melt, and that's the truth, I just wish I had the guts to prove how much I like him, but I always just get too nervous and back out. I was texting him on snapchat one afternoon trying to prove it to him, and for a while I had some pictures saved on my phone that I had got from his Facebook page a long time ago, and kept it the whole time. It only said some things that he wants in a relationship, like "Hello, I want the same things!!!!"
The thing is he skips class sometimes just because he doesn't want to go, and something else is that he smokes, and drinks beer (sometimes). Even though I know if my parents knew what he does, they wouldn't approve let alone let me date him, but I really like him, and well if they don't want me to date him, well I'm probably going to do the exact opposite of what they want me to do. I like him and there is nothing that they can do about it.
I was talking to one of my best friends Charlotte and trying to get some advice as to what I could do to prove to him that I like him and try and get him to go out with me. She told what she had done to start dating her ex- boyfriend who she had been with for 7 straight years. I considered it, thinking would it work? Would it work with Hayes?
Sincerely,
Lexi
