I dragged the blade over my thighs, tears streaming down my face. I just want to be normal again.
I just want to be okay.
But that can never happen. My life being normal isn't going to happen.
I can't breath, and I can't walk.
I can't move. My brain can't stop and I want it to.
Nirvana. Pure bliss. The end to all suffering.
That's what I need.
I can't...I can't make it to nirvana yet though..
Why? I am forced to go through this. Forced to need to go to school
Forced to need to go through anything.
I'd rather not be like this anymore.
I want it all to just stop.
The bleeding is what I need.
I dragged it over my thighs more. Over and over, and over again.
Blood covered my bed and my hands as I held the blade in my hand looking down. My thighs were covered in blood. A small smile spread across my face as my tears ran. Falling onto my thighs stinging .
God I just want it to stop please.
I'm sorry I'm not enough. I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment..I'm trying though can't you see? I'm sorry I'm such a failure..
