The Four Gods and ME

CHAPTER FOUR : Insecurity kills

I know how much he likes this guy

" She's just too cute , to be ignored . Right? ang cute mo! " he said and pinched my cheeks .

" Yeah , you're right " malumanay na sabi ni Stephanie , so that agad kong inalis ang braso ng lalakeng ito sa balikat ko at dali-daling umakbay kay Stephanie .

" Don't believe him Stephanie , bolero yan! " sabi ko

" How did you know? did you already met before? " she said , dahilan para kunotan ko siya ng noo .

" Of course not! at kung Oo , dapat ay sinabi ko na sayo. " paliwanag ko

" Eh bakit parang close na agad kayo? " sabi niya

Ano daw?

" Listen to me Stephanie , we didn't know each other . Nagkakamali ka lang ng akala , okay? " I explained . But no matter how many times I explained the situation , she didn't ever understand . Kasi mas uunahin niya pa  ang kanyang nararamdaman , kesa sa nararamdaman ko .

" Shut up! kahit pa man noon , inaagaw mo na ang lahat na dapat ay sa akin! nakaka-inis ka talaga Almira!!!!!!! " she said and walked out . What?

She left me dumbfounded . 

I was looking at her while she left me dumbfounded , I really don't understand her . I almost forget myself because I always think about her , but look how she acts stupid !

" Why? why did she always walking out like this? Am I wrong? then , what's wrong with me? " I asked myself why , cause there's no one out there will .

" It's because , she's insecure " napatingin agad ako sa kanya .

But why?

" Maybe, you're too pretty? or maybe, the way things go , the way people treated you like a precious thing , and the way your family loved you . Those things , that's why she hated you , like a criminal . " he said

Like a criminal? 

" Pero , nandito naman ako para sa kanya ah? family ko , friends namin . We're here for her , pero talagang manhid siya . O sadyang hindi lang sapat sa kanya ang lahat " sabi ko

I was about to cry , but I  hold back my tears . Because at the time like this , I must be the one to understand . 

Again

But when I'm about to follow her , I was so shocked when he suddenly hugged my back . What is he doing? At the second time , I was left dumbfounded .

" It's okay to hold back , but don't lose care of yourself . Remember that " he said 

What's with this guy?

" Tears can be trusted more than smile , because you can easily smile at anybody , but can't cry for anyone without true feelings . You really are something , Almira " he said while still hugging my back .

" Umiyak ka , umiyak ka hanggang maubos ang luha mo , umiyak ka hangga't gusto mo . Because for me , it's better to cry than to be angry . Because anger hurts others , while tears flow silently through the soul and cleanses the heart . So , cry . Just don't be shy . " when he said that , hindi ko na mapigilan pa ang mga luhang gustong-gusto ng pumatak sa pisngi ko .

I cried not because of her , I cried because I can't  handle it anymore . If I insist , it may cause me a mental breakdown . At iyon ang ayaw kong mangyari sa sarili ko , dahil pag nagkataon sisisihin na naman niya ang sarili niya . Gaya ng nangyari dati . It's a long story , at kung  maikling storya man iyon , I'm too tired to tell you .

" Why?  why did she have to be insecure? I don't fucking understand her anymore! " I asked him , with my tears falling down .

He wiped my tears , slowly . Like slowly to be surely .

" Why? why are you so kind to me? " I said , while looking at him . Like a beggar .

It was like a Romeo and Juliet moment , it's like my ending is near . My feelings . Tho.

" I just have this urge to be kind to those people who carried a lot of burden , you know? " he said , and I smiled .

" Thank you "

[AUTHOR'S NOTE]

Remember Hiro's power? pinapagaan nya ang mga damdamin ng mga tao sa paligid nya. And about sa title ng chapter, haha alam ko pong CURIOSITY KILLS but instead, ginawa ko po syang Insecurity Kills. Bakit? simple lang, Insecure kills you. Matatapakan mo yung sarili mo, at higit sa lahat mawawalan ka ng bilib sa sarili mo. 

Love lots