Demonia

Demonia: Chapter 1

           My heart was pounding against my chest my hands and neck were steady he was just sitting there looking at other people with his charming looks and his kindness to other people. I have never talked to him but he is perfect. Although he would never date me or talk to me. He was the only one who didn't call me a freak or made fun of me because I wear black and satanic necklaces. My name is Daisy but I got the nickname Demonia for what I wear and how I act. I'm always the girl in the back of the class and I don't speak much too people. I love the darkness it makes me feel safe and for me it's pleasant. I like the voices surrounding me and reciting spells. I love black and necklaces like satanic things around my neck. I only live with my mom but she thinks I'm a freak. She tells me to smile more and make my room "less dark" but I don't listen to her. I hate girls who think they are superior then others like Ramona and estepania. They push me around so they can feel good about themselves. They wear pink almost every single day and flirt with boys. They kiss boys in front of me so I can see that I'll never get that including my crush Jason. I have a dark secret that no one knows and I don't want to say it but I know it will come out at some point but not now. Back to my family,  my dad left me when I was a little kid I don't think he wanted me because of how creepy I was and still is. I rarely see my brother he is always locked up in his room with his music on really loud. Again,  I don't have any friends but I wish I had a friend to hang out with you know?  Someone to share my secrets with but as I mentioned before I can't because of how much of a freak I am. I really hope I will be able to experience that someday but instead I'm locked in my own little word. All I ever see and know is black magic and how to do rituals. I only have a demons as friends but not even they talk to me. Knowing me I will never be successful in what I do...Maybe I could use my black magic to get a friend but I don't think it would be the right thing to do that I really don't want to open a portal into a demon world or feed off negative energy and darkness I know I can do it but,  again what will that help me in?  Nothing absolutely nothing... But maybe just maybe. All I want is a friend and I keep thinking if to do that ritual. I might or might not I don't want danger for my family even if they don't care for me. I think "should I do it". I have nothing to lose anyway. God isn't even by my side anymore. I hope I'll find love at some point in my highschool life.