My Unexpected

Its too cold for angels to fly

She saw him
She craved his touch
Walking through the darkness
She saw him laying there
Silence was the only sound
His eyes were soft as he slept
Her body shuddered as she cried
Silent tears slid down here face
Crumbling she watched him sleep
She didn't want to go outside tonight
It's too cold for angels to fly
Liquor clogs the day
Dry throat
Glass shatters as bottles fall
She sits there broken
It's too cold for angels to fly
Sound arouses her
As blood drops off the razor
She picks up the phone
A new flow of tears
Stained her face and her clothes
He is there
It's too cold for angels to fly
She drops it
Changes for him
He couldn't know her pain
How she locked herself away
Forgetting how to love
She fought the pain for him
She saw him
She knew she needed him
Crippling anxiety
Filled her world
Pressure to stay
Pressure against the knife
Pressure on the skin
She broke
She was loved but she broke
It's too cold for angels to fly
Skin tore
He was the bandage
He saved her
She turned to him for everything
She tried her best to save herself
It was more than she could take
She was cold from fear
She couldn't lose him
It's too cold for angels to fly
Dropping the cigarettes
Throwing the bottle she cried
Everyone breaks in their own way
She screamed at her reflection
She had no way out
She couldn't see the light
He didn't know
He was her light
He didn't know
Her pain consumed her
Everything will change soon
Nothing stays the same
It's too cold for angels to fly
Days turned into nights
She slowly gave away
Took too many of her pills
Blamed herself for them leaving
Broke the glass
Hid the mirrors
Night screams the truth
She hated herself
She hated everything she did
It wasn't good enough
He would come
Make everything better
Dry her tears with words
He didn't see how dead she was inside
She fought like hell
She tried her best
It's too cold for angels to fly
She crashed and burnt
She was lost
She knew she was gone
She was so sick of crying
He couldn't take her pain
She pushed him away
She made him leave
Everything was her fault
The water would turn red
When she washed her arms
He couldn't know
She wouldn't make that mistake
She hurt him
She loved him
She cried herself to sleep
She left that night
She needed him
He couldn't handle her
She was too much
He didn't know
She pushed him away
He was tired of it
Why am I crying
She asked herself
It's too cold for angels to fly
So angels die
It hurt too much
She couldn't breath
She let herself cut
She cut the walls
She broke the mirror
She wrote her letter
He came back
It was the hardest pain imaginable
She lost her lover
He needed help
He needed to take time
I loved him she cried
It's too cold for angels to fly
So then the angels die

You
Windows shatter
Blood splatters
Babies scream
People die
Life
When will it leave
Why must you use razor
Water turns red
Blood thickens the tub
Darkness comes over
Mother screams
You are gone
You did it yourself
No one else is to blame
Say goodbye to your family
You are broken
You are worthless
You aren't needed
You aren't wanted
I hurt myself
So I don't hurt others
They are needed
This is what being depressed is like
How it feels to end your life
They cry
They mourn your spirit
You never saw your worth
How much they needed you
How beautiful you were
Looking in
You were beautiful
You were skinny
You were everything you wanted to be
Why didn't you see it
Why couldn't you see my pain
All I needed
WAS YOU
You left me
Broken and bloodied
These words
Shouted by your loved ones
Written on the walls
You can't remember
The pain they made for you
It didn't matter
You didn't matter
Not to them
You died
That's why
Now that you are gone
They need you
Someone who was there for them
They need you now
But you aren't here

I Need Him
He was amazing
He is all I need
He may not see it
Weary eyes with a dry throat
I cry for him in the night
I need him I always have
Since the first day
He was my saviour
He made me believe
I love him so much
I can't show it enough
I need him
Slowly sinking
The feeling is stronger than my anger
It's too hard to hate
He healed my broken heart
I thought it was a dream
When he left
I cried
I needed him I ended up hurting him
Love can hurt
Love can leave
It's the way it works
And when it gets too hard
People break
It's okay to be not okay
It's okay to cut
It's okay too lose everything
She wanted to kill herself
She wanted to feel her dads pain
As she laid by his side
She took the razor
As he slept
And dragged it across her neck
She pulled the razor away to see blood pouring from her wound
She gurgled
She screamed she saw her demons
He woke to the sound of her dying
He didn't know what to do
He killed himself from pain

Him
Big
Thats the word to describe him
He was a god before her
Everything fell perfectly
He stood straight
Her breath touched the air
Circling around him
She couldn't take her eyes off him
She was so drawn in by the way he looked
The desire in his eyes
The hunger for him grew in her
She stalked towards him
Pulling off her shirt she threw it down
Reaching for him
Their mouths collided
Waves of passion
Hunger
His hunger showed
They way he tugged at her pants
It started her fire within her
Moaning filled the room
A sweet sound to lonely ears
He pulled her towards him closer
She felt him
She craved his touch more and more

Bonds
It's easy to forget
To cut away pain
It's easy to love
To give the other the pain
It's not easy
To trust another
It's human nature to fight against them
When those who love us
Fall farther than hell
We blame ourselves
We do it when we can't help
We are all alone
When someone leaves
They don't need you
They don't want you
You feel yourself these lies
You break yourself down
You hate yourself for hurting them
But when you break free
From the bonds of time
From the bonds of pain
There is joy
Sweet melodic joy
It moves your soul
It doesn't let you leave
You will find yourself trapped in heaven
It's amazing to be there
You will never want to leave
God the peace
He brought me love
He was my peace
I will never forget him

You Are His
What is the point
To fight your inner demons
To break at everything
To want to die
Why would anyone be so stupid
To end their life
It would be throwing away magic
Everything is okay
Even when you feel broken
There is your love
There is a better day
You will fall
Farther than hell
You will break
More than glass
But you will have help
You will be put back together
And he will help
He will make it better
He loves you for you
That's why you are his
Girlfriend is a lot closer than friend
You are needed
Neither one is complete
Not without each other
Love is delicate
So be careful