I Needed You

Chapter One

Dear Ethan,
When I needed you, you left. You took your brother and moved to LA. You never texted, or called. You never visited, or wrote. I needed you to help me when my parents passed. My now-ex-boyfriend, Jackson moved away back to Texas. I miss how me, you, and Grayson used to run around town and cause trouble for all the local store owners.

I just wanted to write you, just once. To let you know that I've been just fine without you. I survived and I will continue to strive. I now live alone in your old house because mine had too many painful memories. I used to sleep in your old room, now I sleep in Cameron's old room. I needed you and you left. I hate that I needed you, but I did. You left, I couldn't cope. I cut and had anxiety attacks everyday. Jackson couldn't take care of me and he couldn't cope with my constant anxiety attacks and he just left.

He just packed up and left me, just like you. Everyone leaves. That's why I live alone in this old 5 bed, 6 bathroom house.
I own a game room, I never use.
A theatre that I tend to sleep in.
A pool that always covered.
A foam and ball pit that's never used.
A basement that's constantly cold.
A kitchen that I only use for the fridge.
Lastly, and entertainment room that never has any guests because, as I said before, EVERYBODY LEAVES ME.

You left, Grayson left, Jackson left, my own brother and sister left, Audrianna left, Oacien-Marie left, Myamie-Dawn left, my mom and dad left, Cameron left, Aaron left, Nash and Hayes left. You all just left. And I completely understand, you had lives to live and careers to pursue. But, when I needed you most. You left.

All I wanna know is WHY? Why did you choose then to leave? Why did you leave when I needed you the most? Why couldn't you just wait a couple weeks until I could cope with the loss? Why couldn't you stay with me when k needed you?

Goodbye Ethan,
  ~Anastasia-Rose Pearl-June Dallas