Weird,the feeling of being alone.
It's odd don't you think? The world can be full of wonders, yet only so much can truly be beautiful. Funny how that is don't you think?
Everything seems to be changing so quickly I can never catch a break. Can't I have just a moment of peace,"whatever" I said as I rose from my bed. Peering into my closet I went and grabbed my regular outfit. The days were always the same boring,annoying always unpleasant having to deal with other people is quite a bother and when they fall in love they will never shut up about it. Honestly I wish things could be different.
Days go by,nothing changed why did I even think something special could really happen. Gazing though my bedroom window I could never see the stars, never again I thought. Tossing,turning whilst grunting to catch some sleep yet not having anything work. I decided to stare into the abyss, wow! How boring I let out a sigh and turned on my back looking up at the ceiling. Slowly fading away memories of childhood came back, "p-please...stop" why? "It's been years,why is it that i...I shouldn't be able to...I d-don't want this" hands covering my face as tears leaked though the gaps, I turned to my side grasping for a breath of air gripping my shirt, stop I want this feeling to stop.
Each night it's always the same, my chest feeling as if it's being crushed by boulders,crushed between walls,stabbed while being ripped apart my lungs would cripple,stop and shut down, always gasping for more air be it a little so I won't choke. My head would hurt pounding, thumbing around it won't stop until morning. The people who keeps giving me looks on the way to work and back, my colleagues wouldn't stop whispering behind my back, was it the scares on my arms? The ones on my face? I been told how bad I looked, the things I wear, my attitude how I work, what I shop for . Don't those people understand...I changed but the world still shoves and pushes me away yet every night I would have to live though it again and again and again.
But in the end I decided to push it all away everything away until the gods said "to try again" and before my eyes my chance came. It was small and slim but if there was even a 1% chance I will take it, a do over is all I would need,they were my answer my salvation my new goal. I finally found my pact,willing to protect them forever until my last breath.
She was the only one I needed at the time,she was slipping. And i fell with her, into the black pit we fell. Drowning amongst the vivid ocean lower,deeper,colder. Choking hitting the bottom only one arose. She rose.
To save herself I got pushed, but it's ok down here it's quite.i already adjusted to the dark to the monster there, my heart scattered when it first happened now all the pieces are corrupt. All but one, i still want to be human just a little longer. Maybe I'll get another chance, just one more is all I need.
