Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 13 Connected on Higher Level

"But I have honestly, we met and I finely actuary listened to Jane and her saying's" he told me in a way that made me think that he was begging.

"I'm still not sure if you've changed thou" I doubtfully said.

"It's not something that I just decided was going to happen. It just happened! It just came clear to me and I felt it all." he said smiling as if it was one of the best feelings in the world. "When I lost her it changed me for the worst, which I told you about. I became mad and bitter. Since I was so worried I was going to forget her so the night was just stuck in my head all the time and I took it out on everyone else. I could not let myself forget her! I will not let myself forget her!"

"Well you shouldn't forget her Paul! You should keep on to her forever" I said smiling up at him in an encouraging way. "But that doesn't mean you should torture yourself, remembering that memory everyday does it" I said tearfully as the tragic memory started to come back of the night everything changed.

FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

"Come on Rachel, we've gotter go and pick up Beck's from Jen's" my mum said with that last never ending smile I would see, as she grabbed my hand and started to make our way towards the door.

"Why can't I stay here? I don't want to go" I said dropping her hand and starting to make my way back to the living room.

"Oh come on Rachel. We wont be gone long" she said and walked to me. " Please honey will be back soon, I promise we just need to get your sister"

"I don't want to go" I wailed making the last letter last longer.

"Your coming whether you want to or not. I'm sorry Rachel, but I can't leave you here alone you're not old enough" she told me with a calm voice. That was one of the things about her I could not forget. The way she was always so calm and patent.

"No I'm not going. I'm old enough to take care of myself" I said angrily thinking she didn't trust me.

She grabbed my hand and started pulling me towards the door ignoring what I had just said.

"No I'm not going! I'm staying here" I said trying to let go of her hand but she wouldn't let me and kept pulling me to the car door.

"Get in the car Rachel, come on your sister's waiting for us" she said tiredly as she pushed me gently into the car and did my seatbelt for me.

I didn't talk on the way there the car was just filled with silence.

"Oh come on Rach, don't stay mad at me" she pleaded looking at me through her wing mirror.

I just looked at her and then turned a way.

An than that is when it happened, the flash of the light from the other car. The car crashing into us pretty hard making the car roll over, me screaming and screaming for mum, she staying silent with her body leaning forward not moving.

END OF FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

Tears were coming hurriedly down my face, like a river over flowing. I didn't want to seem week in front of him, by crying. I really didn't, but I just couldn't help it.

He turned me suddenly and gave me a hug in a way of comfort. "Rach you alright?"

"I'm fine" I mumbled into his chest. Even thou I didn't mean it. Like I never meant it. But every single person always bought it. But I forgot that…

"You can't sell me that Rachel " he said but this time without any humour as if he was depressed by it. Than adding "I know your not fine".

Like I said I forgot that we connected on higher level than everyone we'd both know, since I'm pretty sure he's only told a thew people about his full story like he told me. "I'm totally fine" I said trying to keep myself from spilling the truth. Even thou I felt guilty since he had trusted me enough to tell me his story.

"It's fine really" I said wanting a bit more time before I really opened up about everything.

"Look I know something happened, Rachel" he paused. " I also know, it's not just about what happened with your mum, that's making you like this". "

"Look Paul, I'm fine really and I'm not acting like anything" I said trying to keep the tone of voice I always used.

He gave me a look as if to say he knew different. "Look tell me whatever you want me to believe" he told me as if finding it funny. But than he became concerned and honest. "But know this when your ready to talk to someone about it, I'll be there and waiting"

Thanks for reading. I'm so sorry I had a lot of important exams and then it was Christmas. I tried to update as soon as I could. I promise I'll update sooner next time. Also I'm sorry for any spelling or vocabulary mistakes.

Next time I was thinking of doing a little chapter from Paul's view of the talk he had with Jane. I'd do this to try and show how strong Paul's relationship is with Jane and what she had said that had helped.

Please, please review.