The Girl In My Art Class

Art Class

I've known I was bisexual for a while but over the past year after coming out I've started to question it. Like what happens if it was all in my head. Other thoughts like maybe it was lie I told my self that I got too lost into. All that changed my sophomore year of high school. The period was almost over and I was done early. I decided to put my things away I grabbed my folder and headed to put it with the others. I walked into the closet to discard of it there when I got this thought more of a day dream.

In this day dream I was being pushed up against the wall of the art room closet. The that sat in the corner with the advanced drawing which there were only two of them. She was pushing me against the wall while kissing me. I was kinda taken away by this sudden thought. That's when it happened, that's when my first girl crush happened. All those thoughts of me questioning my sexuality stop. I came to terms with it and accepted it. My parents already knew about me being bisexual.

Over the past few weeks after my day dream incident everyday I'd look forward to that period of the day. She was the only reason I liked that class. There was only one problem I was too scared to talk to her. Now with all my previous harmless crushes on boys I've never got nervous around the boy I was crushing on. With her that all changed one day. We were doing a color project that involved with paints that day She happened to be doing a project that involved with paints as well. I was walking over to a sink to get water to start painting when she happened to be going to the same sink as well. She happened to get there before me I stop in my tracks mentally telling myself just to wait behind her until she was done. You know what I did I went to a different sink across the room to get my water. It's like I froze from being so close to her.

A few weeks passed when I found out some information from a friend involving her. Then a couple weeks after that I found out different information about her from a different friend. Me being who I am I went to the internet to try and find some answers. I ended up finding exactly what I was looking for. It wasn't that information that found I  out that made me mad it was that my friend let's call her "Sam" lied to me. I know why she lied to me. The only reason she lied to Me was because she didn't like the girl I had a crush on. I know this because she told me her self. She was one of the 4 people that knew I had a crush on this girl.