Poetry

1 :: Can I?

I dont like the things that is happening
Can I just turn my back and start pretending?
I wish this things never happen and now Im regretting.

Just wanted to love;
Maybe it's not a right time now?

I cant handle this, my heart is aching.
I cant sleep & I started remembering...
Remembering the memories that starts flooding.

Because of him, Im not the same
Who's the one to blame?

The scars in my heart
I dont want to feel this since the start.

Stop judging me, you dont know me at all.
Stop playing with me, I not a fcking ball.

Sorry, If im not worth your expectations.
But that is too high for my limitations.

Its so hard for me to fit in.
You dont even know the risks that Im taking

Two days straight Im crying.
I gonna admit, I feel like dying.
Bullsh*ts have been happening,
I just dont feel like living.

I'd try not to give up even though it hurts so much
The scars in my heart, Im sure its a bunch.

Im so tired for fuck's sake
I just need to take a break!

- c.j

// 7 / 08 / 16 //