BE SOMEONE

Chapter 1

  Be someone. That's what my dad told me before he died. Be someone, the words ring through my ears every day, every minute, it feels almost as if when I breath I'm sucking the words in. Ever since that day I've been torn. What someone did he want me to be, how was I supposed to know who to be if he isn't with me, what guidance does he expect me to have without him. My dad was my entire existence, a while after he died I had to go to therapy, you know, to talk through my problems. Needless to say I missed him, no, I yearned for him to be alive again so I wouldn't have to go through this crap we call life alone. That's why we're moving, Mom and I, we had to get out of that house before the atmosphere suffocated us. She says a new school will be best for me, so we packed up and moved, we are thankful that her company had to move anyway. I was hesitant  to leave, I didn't want to have to start over with new people and leave my friends behind,but it was the best option for us. We moved to Seattle, it's beautiful, rainy and cold, but it would do. We came from Chicago, My dad and my mom met there when they were kids and wanted to raise me there. Plans change. Being 15 and living in what mom says to be the “most dangerous state in the country” doesn't get you much leeway in walking around. School starts in three days, I want to be familiar with the area by them. I’ve been walking around at night ever since i've gotten hear, dad's probably rolling in his grave every night but I don't care, if he wanted to keep me safe he shouldn't have died. Hey, maybe I'll find the “someone” he wants me to be.