It's been almost a year since I last saw him. I remember how his hair was still pretty short from cutting it for the spring show the last year. I was patiently waiting to go back to the middle school to help with the new show and to see all of my old sevvie buddies, Ely, Trinity, and Millie.
It was the day of callbacks for the show they were doing and I was walking back into the middle school for the first time in a few months. I really miss it here but I'm fine at the high school. My old sevvie buddies are all big 8th graders this year so they'll be with me next year.
I started to become nervous. I walked to the music room to see they were doing some auditions. I went into the science room next door to then be trampled by my two buddies Trin and Mill. And some little kid who everyone called Jojo. I looked around and didn't see Ely. I asked Trin where he was and she said he was next door doing a callback. I just responded with an "oh". It was finally time for me to see him again but I was even more nervous than I was before. Trinity told me that he grew out his hair and he grew a TON. I didn't believe her until he walked into the room. My jaw dropped to the floor. He was stunning. He ran to me and koalad me. It took me a few minutes to finally realize he's taller and more handsome than I remember. In the past year, I have had the biggest crush on him but he's always dating Trinity. My stomach was instantly filled with butterflies when he hugged me.
It was finally time for me to go home so I said goodbye to my buddies.
It was a few weeks later and I have been coming off and on to the rehearsals. I couldn't stand being in the same room as Ely and not telling him that I love him.
A few weeks after that, they moved into the PAC, where the show was held, and I went every single day and every single rehearsal. I started to form a bond with all the kids in the show. I found out that Ely and Trin broke up and I used that time as an advantage to flirt with Ely. I would hug him, smile all the time, and play with his pretty long hair. He was just so darn adorable! After the last performance, it was time for me to leave all my newly made friends and my old friends behind. I finally saw them again at the 8th grade promotion. I really did love him but I couldn't let Trinity be mad at me for liking him because she was deeeeeeeply in love with him even though he didn't like her anymore.
It was time for my sophomore year to start and my buds were freshman. I had Drama with them again so that'll be fun! I was so excited to spend time with Ely. He and I grew really close these past few months.
It's almost the end of 1st semester. I actually asked him out a few days ago and he said "idk". I knew that that wasn't a good enough answer so I kept pressuring him to give me a straight answer. Whenever I would try to talk about it, he would immediately change the topic. Today, I decided to walk home with him even though my house is close to the high school. He was telling me that he has less than a week to decide if he would move away with his dad at the end of this school year or if he would stay. I asked him if that was one of the reasons he said idk and he said yes. He then later messaged me saying he had an answer. "No because I don't want things to change between us". I broke down from that cause I hated that he said that but I understood that he wanted to keep the friendship that we do beautifully made.
I hope he decides to stay here with me but if he does decide to move, I'll always love him. He might not know now that I care for him and I want him to be with someone worth his time and with treat him and love him the way he deserves to be loved and treated. I will not stop trying to get him to date me because I feel like him and I were meant to be and I would give him everything that he needs and deserves. He has been in a bunch of crappy relationships like the most recent one was he bought her chocolate, donuts, and a beautiful rose and the next day she broke up with him. I will give him presents whenever I can, I will tell him how wonderful and amazing he is, I will help him through any of his problems, and I will just continue being there for him because he deserves someone who can love him how he needs to be loved. And I feel like I can do it. I feel like it will become a beautiful relationship and our friendship won't get severed.
I really do love him and I will continue to love him until I do otherwise. But I doubt that that will ever happen.
