I WISH I COULD STAY AS A KID

I wish I could stay longer

I heard someone crying. She's non-stop crying. Even im too weak to move, i manage to look at her or Them.

I can't stop myself for crying too. I dont know what to do anymore. It hurts me a lot to see them cry because of me.

"B-baby..... Is s-s-something wrong?" she asked

Umiling ako. Kahit na hinang-hina na ko, nakayanan ko pa rin silang tignan isa-isa.

Before i sleep. Sleep forever. They're the one's i want to see for the last time.

"M-m-mom.... P-p-please d-don't cry..." napapikit ako dahil naramdaman kong malapit na ako. I continued. "You know that i hate it when someone is crying. So please dont cry." mahina kong sabi.

Naalala ko nung masayang-masaya pa kami ng family ko. We're always be right there for each other. Ang daming alaala na masasaya at hindi ko malilimutan. We're always hang-out dahil gusto namin gumawa ng maraming memories to remember hanggang sa huli.

Nagagawa ko pang maglaro at makapaggala but now.. I can't. May sakit na ko. Yes.. You heard it right. I am sick and dying right now. I had a HCM. Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy.

My heart's muscle is weak and abnormal. The doctor said that it's muscle is getting thin. Kaya minsan nahihirapan ako huminga dahil dun.

Gusto ko pang mabuhay. I want to live longer for my family and for my love of my life. I want to achieve my goals and continued the challenge in my life but i can't do it anymore. Because i know i can't continued. It's already my time.

May naramdaman akong humawak sa kamay ko. I want to open my eyes but i can't. Hinang-hina na ko kasi eh.

I heard someone sobs. I know who's crying. Why is he crying again? Oh stupid of me. For God's sake, i dont want him to cry again. It hurts me a lot when he's crying.

Somehow, i manage to open my eyes so i can see him. I guess, im right. He's crying again. Seeing him cry makes me want to hug him and said it's alright but i know i can't.

"H-hey. D-don't cry, Pika. P-please... A-all o-of y-you... I-I dont want all of you cry just because i will leave all of you." lumakas pa lalo ang iyak nila. Hindi ko sinasdyang sabihin niyon but that's truth.

Ang dami ko nanaman naalala.

Flashback

4 years old

"Baby.... Do you want a pasalubong?" Dad said

Ako naman. Napatayo at nagtatalon dahil narinig ko yon. Of course!! Pasalubong eh.

"Really, Dad?? I want a cookies and cream ice cream. One gallon for mine only." I said. Huhu. I want to eat ice cream.

He brushed my hair. "Takaw mo talaga but sige. I'll buy you. Be behave and don't do anything wrong okay??" Dad

I nodded. "Sige. Bye, Baby!! Don't ya worry. When i get back, you'll have your favorite ice cream. Im going now." He said and going to work.

I'm so happy that i had a happy family. Im lucky thay i have them. Sana magtuloy-tuloy lang to.

Tinupad nga ni Dad yung hiling ko. May dala nga siyang isang gallon na ice cream. Agad kong kinuha yun sa kanya at kinain. Tawa ng tawa sila Mom and Dad dahil ang gulo kong kumain eh. Pati kapatid ko inaasar ako pero mahal ko yun.

Sana lagi na lang kaming masaya. Sana hindi kami maghihiwalay.

14 years old

I wake up to get ready for my school. I look at the sun. What a beautiful day to start.