Save Me

Family Reunion

I came home from school screaming to the top of my lungs, "God why can't I be normal!" It's happening all over again, those stupid voices are starting again.

It all started on my birthday the exact moment I woke up, I would hear voices whispering things to me but I never understood them I ignored them for the rest of the day, it was my birthday after all. It was close to the end of the night when my family gathered around me singing as they placed a cake in front of me. The moment I blew out the candels I passed out with no explanation as to why. I was turning ten that day, what a beautiful present I got. I soon woke up in the hospital the voices were a little bit louder and a lot more clear. My family was there with me as they started engaging in conversation with each other. I started to hear the voices but they kept asking if I was okay I kept responding yes I didn't notice anything until I was forcibly pushed down onto the hospital bed. The doctors kept asking me questions like, why do you keep saying yes? Who are you talking to? Is it just one person? What do you seen? Of course I answered all of them with I keep being asked if i'm okay, I don't know who yet, I hear multiple voices, and I don't see anything but you. Later that day I went home diagnosed with Schizophrenia. No one could ever explain how or why I was schizophrenic so sudden and at a young age. I missed a lot of school for long periods of time either I was breaking down, wasn't paying attention to the teacher or I was being bullied for always talking to myself, it didn't take long before I was home schooled. I felt so idiotic no one treated me like a normal person, I mean of course I wasn't normal but neither was Danny and he collected rocks as friends! My mother lost a lot of patience with me and no longer wanted to teach me but luckily I was going to high school already but get this the damn voices stopped and I was finally going to live a normal life. Now I'm 19 and their back! What am I supposed to do? I can't be seen as the weird girl who talks to herself again. I've lost so much in four years my mother grew impatient of me saying a payed more attention to the 'voices' than her, I can't help what I do.

As I continued to scream bloody murder my room mate, Destiny walked in looking worried this was the first time in four years that I've broken down.

"Oh Gods! Layla are you okay?! Oh gods What do I do?"

"It's okay this happens sometimes just let it happen and I'll be fine"

"Like bloody hell I'm leaving you alone while you scream your head off. Come now let's move you to the couch and I'll make you some tea or something"

I didn't stop screaming it hurt to move I usually end up in corners and have my break down, I have developed the mentality that corners are safe. As I was moved to the couch I laid in a fetal position While destiny was being a doll and covering me with a blanket

"Layla what do you usually do to stop screaming? The neighbors are going to call the cops if you don't stop" I covered my face in a pillow muffling the screams. I couldn't remember what I usually did to stop screaming. A small voice whispered, You usually bite your finger but you also used to do breathing exercises. I bit my index finger. Feeling the pain of my bites memories crashed into me like running into a wall it was brutal but it worked I started to calm down.

"Honey are you feeling better? Can you sit now?" Destiny stayed along my side just watching intently but she didn't know what to do no one really does and that's okay. What wasn't okay was the anxiety it caused me, whenever I go outside I can never go alone or I feel like everyone is staring at me judging me expecting me to break.

I was breathing heavily left with just the remains of the spectacle I just put on. Destiny has been the only friend I've had so far. When you're ten years old you're supposed to have many friends developing crushes with the annoying boy that sits next to you during math. All the ten year old girls were having those experiences while I would sit in my kitchen table hearing the occasional conversations between the voices usually they were directed towards me trying to get my attention, I would respond but it was like they couldn't hear me. I didn't have friends for the four years I was home schooled no one in my block would want to be around me I wasn't even the teachers pet. My mom would blame me for everything, her dreams didn't come true because she had me, She could have been working to support the family but instead she's at home teaching me, I don't pay attention to her there's no point in teaching me if I wasn't going to pay attention, I was going to live with her for the rest of my life because I wouldn't be able to support myself financially, etc, etc. Destiny has been the only friend I've acquired during my high school experience and I'm greatful to have her.

"Are you feeling better?" she asked handing me a cup of tea

"Thanks" my voice sore from screaming it hurt to talk but I had to express my gratitude.

"Oh honey your voice. you need to rest up, by the way you don't need to thank me for anything after all what are friends for right?"

"S-still I-"

"Stop talking Layla you're going to ruin your voice even more please just rest for a while. Can you do that?" I nod with a small smile displayed.

I laid on the couch as destiny tidied up but I couldn't sleep so easily so instead I just laid there staring at the ceiling. Destiny saw I was struggling to sleep so she covered my face claiming that it helps her sleep... it worked, I fell asleep quickly. In my dream it was dark at first but I wasn't entirely scared I remember having a dream like this once or twice I just have to wait until some of the color comes back and I wake up. Soon the color white appeared then black and lastly grey I was met by five men in what seemed like parade uniforms. The five men were in a semi circle looking at me intently. Who are these people? This has never happened before.

Soon the smallest of them walked toward me looking at me like I was crazy, "Can you see me?" he didn't even wait for me to answer and poked me. Now it was my turn to look at him weird.

"Guys! She can see us!" the tiny man yelled. What the hell is going on? This is such a weird dream.

"Okay Frank we dont want to scare her, this is the first time this has actually worked." this one had short blonde hair and I could tell he was the one in charge it was time to get answers.

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HI! so I honestly don't know where I'm going with this story I'm just writing to write soooo yeah! I do have an idea of how I want this to go but things might change. I will try and update as often as I can I still need to update other stories and stuff so I do apologize if I go in a hiatus. That being said I hope you like the story