14:Female:Sarah Jones
I came home from the Therapist nothing new same old depression anxiety same old same old.But I saw him....Austin.We are like the same person expect he's a male and good looking and everything I'm not.Putting all feelings aside I came home laid on my bed curled up and starting watching tv but I soon zoned out.....as if the world stopped.I could only think of this "See her smile her laughs her giggles.There fake.The all have some kind of fucked up meaning behind it.They say it's ok to fake a smile.They never said for how long.Ive tried to be ok but is even ok possible.I listen to these never ending voices in my head they don't leave.I can't do anything.You stare and laugh.I do nothing.Its like I'm worthless.This makes no sense it never will.Ill never like someone and care as much for someone as much as I do for you and I'm going to be a friend in your eyes".Before I realized I was
crying. My phone had 3 missed calls from him....I texted him and lied.I never lie to him. He was everything to me.Ive never realized I could love someone so much.I heard a knock on my door....nobody said anything about coming over.I looked through my window and saw Austin standing there my heart melted when I saw the flowers.He know how to make me smile.But apart of me wanting to kill those flowers.My eyes watered when I heard the voice say this.I tried to ignore them but I couldn't.I ran downstairs and jumped in his arms when I opened the door.Everything goes away when I see him.
