Never said you had to be perfect. (yuri)

Chapter 2 ~ I Love You Too

I was blinded by a painfully bright light as I squinted open my exausted eyes.

The bitter light and the rubbery smell reminded me of a hospital..

So did that weird beeping noise...it sounded like one of those heart monoters that show your heart beat..or something like that...

Oh shit.........was I in a hospital?!

Oh god.....

My parents are going to kill me...

they didnt know all the times I had been bullied and abused at school..not that they would care...
they barely ever noticed me anyway. They were always too busy doing their work or fighting with each other over stupid things.

My mother was a cheater.
She went out with other men while still being married to my father. They wanted a divorce anyway.
My mother couldn't stand my father.
Most days he left home early in the morning, going to some bar or a vape shop or something. Then he didnt get home until midnight. He would be so drunk that he couldnt even walk.
My mother was constantly yelling at him for that, which made him really mad. He would sometimes hit my mother.
One time, when I was in third grade, he tried to rape her. And me.

He had managed to get my mother pregnant, and when she had my baby brother, my mother came home to my drunk, angry father once again.
She had told me to go to my room and pack my bags.
So I did.
I heard screaming.
She had told father that we were leaving and never coming back to his "alcohol, drug addicted fat ass."
That was the maddest I had ever seen my father... He was throwing chairs and shattering windows and anything else that just happened to be in his way.

He ended up killing the baby and giving my mother a broken leg...

He told me that if I ever said a word about what I saw to anyone, he would kill me, too.

But I did tell someone.

Kyoko.

Kyoko had always been the one that was there for me.
She stood up for me.
Protected me.
She knew everything...

***

I gently tried to sit up in my uncomfortable hospital bed. But I couldnt. There was something on top of me. Holding me down.

When my eyes adjusted to the light, I looked around. Thats when I saw her. Kyoko. She was laying with me in my hospital bed, asleep. she had an arm wrapped tightly around my waist.

Her eyes were stained with tears...

She looked like she hadn't slept in forever. and i didnt want to wake her up. i slowly and carefully tried to push her arm off.

Kyoko's head shot up faster than a bullet. She stared at me for a second, as if not believing what she saw. She jumped up on me, one arm around my neck and the other one around my waist. She started crying. I guessed that they were tears of joy this time.

"K-kira..." Kyoko stutered "I......I thought you were..."

she started crying more as she higged me tighter.
I wrapped my arms around her. "its okay. Im used to it. Im fine." I said, trying to make her feel better, even though it was obviously a lie. I was used to it. But I wasnt fine. Everything still hurt.

"DONT SAY THAT, KIRA! THIS IS NOT OKAY!!" She yelled, scaring me. she let go of me amd looked away.
"im sorry...this is all my fault...I should have been there...I should ha-"

I cut her off, slapping my hand on her mouth so she couldnt speak.

"no." I said "this is NOT your fault. Ill be damed if youre gonna go blaming yourself for something that doesnt have anything to do with you."
I tooky hand away slowly. "you were not the one that beat me up, were you?" I asked.

She shook her head, still not looking at me.

"then its not your fault." I said.

There was a long silence.

"d-do my parents know?" I asked.

Kyoko looked up at me. "your parents are dead." She said.

My heart stopped.

"d-dead?" I started to feel light headed again.

Kyoko looked away again. "yes. After I found you unconsious on the stairs I called the hospital. They came. They called your parents and told them what had happened. But they never showed up to see you or anything. your dad was really drunk and had killed your mom. He ended up calling the police on himself. But when they arrived, he had commited suicide and was found drowned in the bathtub."

I was stunned...

I had no idea what to do or say or think...

I was too exausted to cry...

Kyoko hugged me. "my mom said you can come and live with us...i-if you want too" She said.

I didnt respond. I didnt know. I just didnt know.

"i love you." She said.

Kyoko was one of those people who could make you happy even when the worst things happen. Her mother called it a gift. And it was.

"i love you too"