Love. The key to happiness, the only thing we need to live, the gift that is found in a person and is cherished for eternity. Its a gift, a blessing when found but brings pain and sorrow when lost. Love is a realm we tend to lose ourselves in leaving the stress of this cold and lonely world behind, closing our eyes and handing our souls over to our lover. Love can change our perspective in life both good or bad, its a dangerous thrill.
My first encounter with love was at an early age, I was young and clueless about feelings. (karen) was my official "crush", seeing her everyday in class sitting across from me made me feel happy however confused because i was new to this feeling of " love". I would question myself as to why i would feel that way towards her, what was so special about her? Maybe it was her sparkling blue eyes, that taken me away, or maybe her smile that lightened up the room. Day by day my feelings grew, it gave me an excitement as the days went by and somehow we got closer as friends. She was one year older but age doesn't matter, does it? As the year proceeded to an end, I realized she was going to her first year of highschool, and i had one more year left in elementry, time was running out and i had to tell her about my feelings, maybe that would change things, i thought to myself. I gathered up my courage and messaged her that follow summer, explaining my feelings but it seemed to be late by the time i did, she already had a boyfriend, however she did admit that she liked me back. There it was, a chance that slipped away but there could be more chances right? That following year i patiently waited to enter highschool and see her once more, I just wanted to see her smile again, and i did. On a cold winter evening, i was heading home from basketball practice, slowly dragging my feet through the wet concrete, the sun was hiding behind the trees. The cold was crawling from my feet up to my spine making me shiver, I'm almost home i thought to myself, just a few blocks. There was a figure in the distance walking towards me, I started making assumptions, maybe a classmate, or maybe just another drugged up woman out for a stroll. As we both came closer to eachother, I suddenly realized who it was, i felt my heartbeat rise, thump,thump, faster it sped up as i took each step. It was her, she was wearing a light blue adidas track jacket, she looked at me with that same smile that made me fall for her, she waved. I waved back giving her the same smile in return. It made my day, and I didn't give up hope. Just a few more months I kept telling myself but that chapter came to a sudden end. I moved away from that town, never seeing her again, but she never left my mind. Till this day we haven't crossed paths, hopefully we do one day. She taught me what feelings were.
