Or though you can still hear me, feel me, see me... I am far from this place. My presence is absent and what seems to be me is a creation of my mind. A replicated soul of my past behaviour; someone to be like me. It may not be stable - I may not be stable, but it'll work for the mean time. Where am I? I don't know. I'm in a place similar to here. I'm surrounded with people with characteristics similar to this reality, who dress, speak and walk like y'all. To be honest they're pretty much replications of y'all. The only difference is me.
Perspective has always raised a strong feeling within me. For what seems to me to be a world filled with neglect, hate, love and whatever else - never seemed that way before I got here. I think it may be my craziness that's gotten me here. Honestly I might only just be turning mad. I left filled with a lot of anger and love and I hope my present character who y'all seem to see can handle those emotions. The hate, the confusion, everything I thought I had buried had crawled back up to the surface. Those feelings remained with my mind as they made sure that this time they were not returning to the unconscious. All I took was the part of me which contained my purity and beauty through honesty. For whatever sake, I thought that taking my mistakes along with me would create another world exactly like ours. If that was to happen, what would the point of all this?
There is a glimmer of me in myself. I feel myself when I'm observing. All I do is observe but I feel guilty after because I then make judgements. I don't make the usual judgments but I hope to stop because it will never be right for me to carry on because my Father from heaven does not appreciate it. I plan on letting it go, coming back and living the same life as before. I think I've convinced myself that coming back will be a bigger step to take than having come here. I'm seeking for something and I plan on finding it. I hope for good. I hope for light in all this!
