the good the bad and the urie

chapter 1 - "will to live "

BANG..BANG..BANG
"Just let me in Hannah! I'm gonna knock the door down if you don't !"

For some people , it's their partner or their children or their will to live that wakes them up in the morning. Well not for me. For me , it's either being screamed at too make breakfast , being punched and kicked multiple times , or the front door off my small , cramped apartment being kicked of its hinges .
Sometimes it's only one of those reasons a morning , sometimes it's all three .

Well today I'm not caving in. I will not answer the door to Jackson , no matter what he threatens to do to me.
BANG..BANG..BANG
"Hannah! I swear to fucking god I will kill you!" Jackson screams from the other side of the door.
I sigh and sit up straight on my shared sofa bed. I yawn then try and remember what happened last night .oh yeah , Jackson thought I was cheating on him when I was really at the job centre applying for a job interview and he started beating me again...
SHIT. I unlock my shitty Nokia brick that's on the floor next to my bed and I look at the time .
9:15 . my interviews in 45 mins and it takes me at least half a hour to walk to where it is. I try to ignore Jacksons screams as I get ready. I get a quick 5 min shower and wash my flimsy hair. I tie it up quickly into a neat-ish bun and let it air dry. I put on my make up and try to conceal the old and fresh bruises and cuts on my face and neck.

BANG..BANG...
And then I hear the door fling off its hinges. I gasp and quickly try and run out of the bathroom , but as I turn I see Jackson , standing in the bathroom door way.
"Why didn't you answer the door you fucking bitch?" he stares right at me.

"I..I..didn't hear.." I stutter as he strolls over to me and grabs my neck. He pushes me up the wall and I try and scream . He punches my jaw.
"why are you putting make up on ? WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TRYING TO SLAG YOURSELF UP FOR HANNAH?" He screams .
I try and explain its for a job interview but he ignores me and flings me at the Doorframe like a rag doll. My head smacks off the wall as I fall back.
I try and beg but he comes over and kicks me in the stomach. I scream out in pain and he grabs my hair , pulling me up so we're eye to eye.
He spits at my face , then let's go off my hair and let's me drop to blood soaked tiles of our bathroom floor. He laughs at me.

"I'll get someone to come and fix the door again later. Clean up this shithole . I'm going out" he kicks my head one last time before he steps over my pounding body and leaves. Before I even try and think about where to bloods coming from , I crawl over to where I left my phone and Dial 'Fuelled by ramen' main office number.

" Hi , My names Hannah Lightway , I have a job interview at 10, but I'm going to be running a little late" I mutter.
The woman on the phone says she'll let someone know and I thank her.

I bleach and clean the bathroom floor Then get another shower , Then do my make up all over again. I put on a Walmart white shirt , a black pencil skirt , Some Little black wedges and a small black blazer on with my glasses . I redo my hair , not noticing the blood dripping from a cut on the back of my head . I put my phone into my bag , and then walk out off my apartment wearing a fake smile.

I speed walk to the Fuelled by Ramen offices and get there at 10:37.
I try and look confident as I walk up to my reception desk and tell them my name. The woman seems nice enough as she shows me to a room packed full of other candidates for the job. In the ad , they only said that it was a personal assistant and to be at the offices by 10. I look around the posters on the walls. Pictures of panic! at the disco and twenty øne piløts are scattered around the room. I literally obsessed with Brendon , Tyler and Josh. Oh my god...Could I end up being one of their personal assistant's? My inner fan girl is screaming like mad.

But then I start to feel light headed and dizzy, so dizzy I don't even hear a middle aged man shouting my name to go through to the offices.

"Hannah Lightway?"
I stand up and follow him. He stops walking when we get outside of a gigantic office door.

"Good luck!" he says and then walks off.

I take a deep breath in and knock on the door.

"Come in"

AUTHORS NOTE

sorry this chapter is so small , this is a book I think I'm actually going to finish and I will be coming back and editing bit here and there , but for now I'm going to leave the chapter how it is...