Take this how you want,
but dont take it wrong,
I finally got it right,
Sorry it took so long,
I could never change you,
We are who we are,
and im sorry,
I let it get this far,
As I watched you walk away,
I realized I needed my dad,
even if you were something,
I never had,
Though everything you've done,
caused me the worst pain,
back then my anger drove me,
and I found someone else to blame,
I blamed myself,
other's around me,
even if you were in the wrong,
I pretended to be,
I wanted an idol,
a made up version of,
my perfect father,
I wanted your love,
I never said anything,
but I looked up to you,
could that have changed things,
if you knew?
not everything was your fault,
you were raised wrong to,
Do you remember my birthday?
That my favorite color is blue?
And I never admitted,
that I wanted you to care,
I wanted to see your pride,
when you saw we have the same hair,
Maybe things would have turned out differently,
If I would have been a better person,
if both of us would have thought about what we said,
we could have saved pain that was worsened,
You probably wont ever read this,
but I love you so,
I want ever be able to say it to you,
but I thought you should know,
Maybe in another life,
we'll get a second chance,
then you can be the one,
to take me to the father daughter dance,
I forgive you,
for giving me my scars,
and enough though I need my dad,
I'll love you from afar.
