Take your time(coming soon)

Prologue

The monitor drew a straight line, a steady beep filled the air.
It was over. She was gone. I looked to my right so see our two kids sitting on a lazy chair, struggling to grasp what was happening.
"Daddy, is mommy okay? Make the beeping stop, it's hurting my ears." My youngest, Elivia said. She had concern, fear, and confusion written on her tiny features. Her eyebrows were up in confusion and her smile had gone away. She put her hands to her ears, realizing that the beeping had not stopped yet. Oli, was now growing impatient with his younger sister; her arms in the air were getting into his personal space and he was not happy with it.
I could not have them fight at this moment. As much as I wanted to cry right there and then, I couldn't, because my seven and five year old were right in front of me and oblivious to what was happening, not because they didn't care, but they were so young that they didn't understand. Bad things happening weren't part of their life.
I knew they deserved to know, but how do you explain to them that there mother just left and was not coming back, forever.
"Sweety, mommy is very tired. She will be sleeping for a long time, okay? Say goodbye." How it hurt me to say those words. They didn't deserve this, I didn't deserve this, and she didn't deserve this!
"But daddy, she's gonna wake up right? Mommy is gonna wake up, because you always wake up after a nap. When are we gonna see her, again?"
"Elivia, this is a special kind of sleep, like aurora... honey she is going to be sleeping for a very long time. We can't see her anymore. Only a few more times."
"Daddy, mommy is sleeping beauty?" A smile popped its way onto her face. Oh my god.
"Yeah baby she is. So let's say goodbye and let her sleep."
"But daddy, your so silly. Kiss her and she will wake up." She looked at me with big eyes. She had her mothers eyes. She really didn't know what was going to happen, she didn't know what this meant. I figure Oli has a slight better understand of this whole situation, but he still didn't fully one hundred percent understand. I knew one day I would need to talk to them. One day, but not today. Not soon.
"Honey I can't, this is different."
"But daddy your her Prince Charming."
"I know I am sweety, but it isn't going to work." It broke my heart to tell her that line, because I saw her smile drop and she lazily got off the chair and made her way to her mum.
We had a bench on the side of her bed for the kids to be closer to her. Elivia got up on it and kissed her mom. Thankfully, they both took after me in height and were tall kids. Always were.
"Bye mummy, see you soon. I love you" She whispered in her moms ear, but said it too loud for all of us to hear.
She walked her way over to me, I patted her head gently, two pink tails on either side of her head, her mum did that for her this morning. Nearly 8 hours ago. I wish I could go back to that moment. She outstretched her arm, indicating for me to take it, as I gladly did, needing the comfort that Elivia didn't know she was offering me.
"Come on Oli, you too. Say your goodbyes to your mum."
He too got off the chair and made his way to her, he seemed to know more of what was going on while still being slightly confused. He whispered in her ear and unlike Elivia, I couldn't hear a word.
He soon was at my side, taking my free hand. Both coming along with me, I said goodbye already but I had to say it again.
"Bye Poppy, I will always love you. I will always miss you, and I will always take care of the ones you and I made as you watch down on them. Give me strength baby, give me your love. Rest in piece. I love you."
All three of us walked out of the room. The look on my face gave it all away. The nurses knew it was coming. Poppy told them that when it was to happen, that they shouldn't rush in the room. They should wait for us to leave. She got her wish, yet what about mine? Why did the bad one win?
I looked back, and let a single tear flow down. Goodbye Poppy, thank you, I love you.